...my sadness...

2010-05-03T21:00:00.001+08:00

...我真的... 真的... 很累了...

我沈默, 不代表我不痛
我不痛, 眼泪就不会流
总是安静承受, 安静忍受...

好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾流过...
感动和悲伤都是理由...

我多希望...
有好的眼泪慢慢流,
和好的笑容陪着我...

可是就是没想到...
错错错错错错错错, 全部都搞错...
最深的痛也只能沉默...
笑过哭过没想过, 最后要寂寞...

世上最残酷的, 恐怕是时间
困住人, 一切却还向前
干涸的眼再挤不出一点咸...

等待后面是等待，
更沉默的等待...

让我肯想...
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦，那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水...

我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂的世界
如果是你发现了我
也别将我挽回...

虽然, 笑着比解释容易...
可是, 我不是你想象中那么勇敢...
笑着哭... 真的... 真的... 好痛...

My mum was on leave for the past two weeks
because of hypertension due to stress at work

Every month when I see her tears
I don't know what to think anymore

Am I going to end up like her?
Or even worse than that?

Was I making the right choice,
when I chose the paved path for me,
so that I wouldn't disappoint her?

So I get my degree,
Then what's next for me?

An accounting job 8-5?

But...
I won't be happy...

Because, that's not what I want...

I'm so tired... I really am...

I'm so tired of living my life
and trying to keep up with her expectations...

When is it my turn?

2010-04-29T00:40:00.002+08:00

watching 百万小学堂 now... so thought I'd just update a lil bit...

Did photoshoot with beatrice yesterday... at mactech building... was like her 保姆... haha... gave her a morning call to make sure she got to my place on time... but ended up 15 mins late anyway... but the studio person was even later... so it kinda worked out in the end... haha!

...photographer also can get bored, ok...

...I helped her fold all the clothes ok! Yesh! I can fold clothes...

...annddddddddd WE'RE OUT...

oh yar... today's panda's 21st... damn funny... the twins called him "OLDA"... "OL" as in "old" and "DA" as in "pan-da"... somehow he doesn't mind being called old... but he mind's being called uncle... hahas! made this for him last night, but highly doubt he will know how to appreciate it...

"不再不再给你任何等待
放弃我已慢慢把你放弃
一切我已慢慢失去感觉

若无其事我就像若无其事
我就像若无其事

其实我曾想过
是否我们相处时间不够多多却错
於是害怕结果
最后难过我不过寂寞
没结果的结果对我来说
就算寂寞也算解脱也算解脱

意外从一开始到现在
伤害到彼此怨恨而分开
奇怪我对挽回没有感觉

就算寂寞
其实我也曾想过
喜怒哀乐不算什麽
对我来说就算寂寞也算解脱喔
也算解脱喔
若有其事其实若无却若有"

若无其事 by 房祖名

2010-04-25T23:00:00.002+08:00

alrite! im 'restarting' my blog... hahaz...
lets see...
i've passed 2009's Christmas, New Year 2010, Chinese New Year 2010, Annual Kuantan trip 2010...

ok... a lil updates here and there...

10th Apr --- Celebrated Phoebe's Birthday! =)

...something i made for her...

17th Apr --- Finance Mid-Sem and 五月天 D.N.A. Concert

22nd Apr --- Dance for Fund 2010 & Yusof's Birthday!

23rd Apr --- Lunch with UTAC ppl & Pool with HWJ and HY...

24th Apr --- Celebrated Panda's 21st @ Chinese Garden...

coming up this week...

27th Apr --- Photoshoot in the afternoon

29th Apr --- Project meeting

1st May --- ah ma going for the long juan feng concert @ suntec

2nd May --- Celebrate my bro's bday

3rd May --- Audit Mid-Sem!!!! D=

Not sure why... but been feeling tired quite easily these past few days... 老了！ haha!
friends asking me to start planning my 21st since i've got so much time before november...
but my answer is still the same...

"I cannot be bothered... Cause when the time comes... It's my exam period... I'd probably be hugging my notes and books to sleep... and plus I'm not very good at entertaining people..."

oh well... maybe will just have a drinking and K 歌 session when it comes... hahas...

"这杯咖啡忘了加糖

真不是我那麼伤感

世界太复杂你说单纯很难

我当然都明白

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方

只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大

我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样

我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方

你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样

总是远远关心远远分享

我们没有在一起至少还像朋友一样

你远远的关心其实更长..."

"我们没有在一起" by 刘若英

2009-12-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

took 153 today and walked home from the main road instead of calling my dad today...
no idea why...
but I just felt like walking...
listened to "Lonely Christmas" by 陈奕迅 while walking...

"I wonder how this year's Christmas is gonna be..."

2009-11-01T22:00:00.001+08:00

"hey! 给我一分钟的快乐吧
给我个办法来发泄吧
给我自由
让我生活不再没有意义

hey! 给我一分钟的快乐吧
给我个办法来发泄吧
给我自由
让我期待明天能精彩..."

最后只好躺下来 by 黄立行

2009-10-04T15:00:00.000+08:00

...don't know who to trust anymore...

"现实中幸福永远缺货.."
我还想她 by 林俊杰

2009-08-10T15:00:00.000+08:00

...你真的快乐吗？...

"你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的愈合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下
你穿的保护色
为什麽失去了
还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤
全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着"

你不是真正的快乐 by 五月天

2009-08-05T22:00:00.001+08:00

...everyone needs a break at some point of time...
...so just TAKE IT ALREADY!...

(^.^)V

2009-07-30T19:00:00.001+08:00

...pic says all =)...

2009-07-18T01:00:00.003+08:00

黃立成&黃立行-緣投與阿丑

man i love this song!!!
probably my fav song that the huang bros did together!!!
the MV quite nice too!!! not only for the sick moves... but for the "history"...
damn they are talented!!!

"Yo Je 我知道你知道我比你厉害

想不出来为什么你要跟我弄这条

靠什么时候

变得这样臭屁

别忘了我是哥哥你是弟弟

你若赢过我是让你

你是让我

以前你也没这么大胆

你若敢就来拼看谁第一名

一个猴子带一群狗子

一个狗子跌入沟子

一个狗子回去找钩子

钩那个狗子从水沟出来

那个大家都听过

不然来个新的

那个狗子从沟子自己爬出来

给那整群狗子

知道那一个狗最厉害

踢那个老猴到沟子里

Jeff那个老猴就是你嘿嘿

我十个月就开始走路

啊你两岁半只知道一句哈啰

黑白讲我两岁就在游泳

啊你呢　我忘记了

但是我记得你常常尿在水里

我记得你常常尿在你的裤子里

我三岁就在骑铁马

我三岁半就在骑真的马

我四岁就是空手道冠军

我也是那天比赛就有奖品分

别再比反正我早你两年

啊我会你早死两年

Yo Stan Yea what up

你记不记得以前大家都分不出我们

说我们是双胞胎

我记得但是我怎么看都看不出来

因为一个叫缘投一个叫阿丑

两个都是同样妈妈爸爸生出来

一个小时候坏

一个小时候乖

两个都是同样妈妈爸爸生出来

我是用右手我是用左手打枪

我开Machi公司我帮你投资

我写这个歌给我们两个来唱

给我唱你来配舞

Man forget you"

2009-07-15T11:00:00.000+08:00

dam zone out now...
slept at 3am last nite... correction though... this morning...
couldn't get to slp... too pek chek I guess...
not that I blame them... just blame myself in a way...
"Why can't I get it right just once..."...
man, I'm still a failure when it comes down to planning get-togethers...
this is proabably the 5th kind of get-together I have planned...
this time got cancelled all the way instead of going ahead with it...
my previous few planning always ended up in criticism...
so not sure whether I should be happy or sad that this get-together is not happening...

"怎么停留回忆总是出现在我想起之后
这样稚气的面容现在还有没有
怎么重播如此念旧的镜头在离开之后
场景人物画面时空都还没变过"

香草吧噗 by 南拳妈妈

2009-07-13T11:00:00.002+08:00

Back at work...
But with nth to do again...
man I miss waking up at 12pm...
and all the 康熙来了... hahaz...

"我要选择我自己既选择
我要表达我自己既表白
选择企或者选择坐
选择错我都选择过

今天你做了甚么明天你要做甚么
要往前走还是往后要往左还是往右
我的路每一步该怎么走有谁在等候
一路向前走来到十字路口 Wo
把所有阻碍抛到脑后

不管你是哪一个哪个都阻挡不得
我用自己的选择让我发光发热
不满意我又如何为甚么要听你的
我行我素的风格就是忠于我选择

系个宗教定个书包
令你安全觉得可靠
冇人敢考冇人敢教
你一生你去调教

从前的懵懂可笑未来的没人知道
等待拥抱还是寻找要咆哮还是祷告
只有我最清楚我的需要不用指教
我是我自己生命中的主角
让梦想在我胸中燃烧 "

由你选择 by 林俊杰 feat. 农夫FAMA

2009-07-12T11:00:00.000+08:00

sometimes... certain things make me think ppl are like sheep...
the thing is that sheep tend to follow the sheep in front of them...
this photo shows just that...
if the people didn't just keep following each other in this path to the mrt...
do you think that the grass in that path would just die...
sometimes when I go out with friends...
and we want to head off to another place...
someone has to move first before anyone will move too...
"If no one is gonna move, nobody is gonna move... so just get moving first..."

2009-07-11T11:00:00.000+08:00

"我们都容易对号入座一首歌
反复让歌词深深呼应着
可能不同看不看开的执着
可能太痛有些画面某合

我们也容易忘记旧歌学新歌
受过伤还是有爱的资格
在每段难得的起承"

新歌 by 唐禹哲

2009-07-10T11:00:00.000+08:00

finally my collection is done!!! hahaz...

just bought the "想太多" album at HMV yesterday...
some of the prices of the cds are ridiculously marked-up though...

2009-07-09T11:00:00.003+08:00

regret...
there is no way to have not regrets in your whole life...
the only difference is how we live with it and move on...
everytime we will keep saying "If only..." or "早知道..."...
then from my friends I will hear "早知道... 早知道... 我就中一百万了!"...
at different points of our lives... we "If only..." certain things... at the same time we look back our previous "If only..."s...
personally i have regretted alot of things in life...

at 6 when I started pri sch in Singapore... "If only I was stilling living in Canada, then I wouldn't have to study Chinese!!!"...
at 8, after playing at the neighbourhood playground... "If only I had been more careful and not sprain my ankle, then I could have gone to Fantasy World. And I probably wouldn't have gotten lazy about exercising!" hahaz...
at 9, I moved from Bukit Panjang to Kovan area... "If atonly I didn't have to move, I would have been in the same class as my good friend..."
at 10, I started pri 5 in a new sch... "If only I had stayed at Bukit Panjang, then I wouldn't have to deal with a new class..."
at 12, started sec sch... "If only I hadn't cried so much during sch, I probably wouldn't have been the target of ridicule of the guys in my class..."
at 15, I got a new puppy!... "If only I had stuck to my choice of getting the mini puppy from the pet shop, I wouldn't have ended up with such a medium sized dog now..."*but I still love her anyway* =)
at 17, my old dog passed away... "If only I had spent more time with her, maybe I wouldn't be missing her so much..."
at 18, had a video conference with an old friend in Vancouver... "If only I had continued to send the letters i sent in pri sch, then we wouldn't have been so out of touch with each other..." *damn... where are those old letters... "
at 19, graduated from poly... "man my results are bad... If only I had put in more effort at yr 3..."
at 19, also went to Taiwan... "If only I had gone a week later and stayed in Taipei only, probably would have brought a few more bags home... hahaz... Also might have been able to see the Machi shop!" *man... talk about bad timing!*

there's many more... lazy to list them out already... but really after looking back... Some I would love to go back and change... But most of it, I would have just left it anyway... Though some questions will still linger on, just keeping myself busy keeps these irritating thoughts out... hahaz... So if you see me unusually busy... Thats the main reason... l0lz...

"那阳光碎裂在熟悉场景好安静
一个人能背多少的往事真不轻
谁的笑谁的温暖的手心我著迷
伤痕好像都变成了曾经

全剧终看见满场空座椅灯亮起
这故事好像真实又象虚幻的情境
只是那好不容易被说服的自己
藉口又顶不住懊恼的侵袭

好后悔好伤心想重来行不行
再一次我就不会走向这样的结局
好后悔好伤心谁把我放回去
我愿意付出所有来换一个时光机
对不起独自回荡在空气没人听
最后又是孤单到天明
(最后又是孤单到天明)"

时光机 by 五月天

2009-07-08T11:00:00.001+08:00

"亂世浮生这是你给的活着的评语
轻蔑的笑说尽了你的神气
风吹过来吹起了你白色的衣领
也吹走了我的悲观的相信

经过了谁和谁相遇又谁和谁的分离
最后把自己交给了命运
命运像失控的马戏小丑开始哭泣
大象猴子跑进城里

因为有你因为有你变换整个场景
那忧郁好像可有可无的道具
因为有你紧抓着你像坐上纸飞机
漂浮吧飞过混乱世界的逻辑

没有原因为什么一定要有原因
有人到了七十岁还问原因
亂世浮生这是你笑着说的唇语
就算一秒也要快乐的决心

漂浮吧飞过混乱世界
昨天的烦恼就丢在上个世纪"

亂世浮生 by 五月天

2009-05-23T01:30:00.003+08:00

can't believe i nearly cried in the mrt again... after seeing a family of three smiling and the kid laughing away... just felt a sharp jab at my heart strings... dam...

"有时候太坚强笑容却填不满眼眶
越是想要隐藏歌声就唱的更响亮
直到入到心底最深处
你不要追问我还缺了些什麽

每个人都有梦幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最後一站
我强问我自己现在还没有个答案

我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上

每个人都有梦幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最後一站
我强问我自己现在还没有个答案

我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上

我不是你想像总是扮演坚强
多想让你知道我也要个伴
放下讨厌武装像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上

我不是你想像的那麽勇敢"

"我不是你想像那么勇敢" by 梁文音

2009-05-20T22:30:00.002+08:00

left out.again

got this nagging feeling of being left out recently... it didn't really appear much the past few months... maybe it's a reminder of something that i should always remember...

"Don't expect... and you won't feel disappointed...

Don't attach... and you won't feel left out..."

"Pictures of you... Pictures of me... Remind us all of what we used to be..."

"Pictures of You" by The Last Goodnight

2009-05-04T14:00:00.000+08:00

...killing office boredom...

2009-04-27T08:15:00.000+08:00

I wanna watch X Men Origins!!! for mainly 2 reasons...

1. I just love X-Men...

2. I wanna see GAMIT!!!! hahaz (^.^)

2009-04-01T12:00:00.000+08:00

...Happy April Fools...

2009-03-12T11:00:00.002+08:00

Boss not around... TImE to PLAY! hahaz

i noe im abit old for this!!! but i still love them!!! hahaz... the bottom pic created from viwawa then screenshot... =p

"Ever ever after

Storybook endings

Fairy tales coming true

Deep down inside

We want to believe they still do

In our secretest heart

It's our favorite part of the story

Let's just admit

We all want to make it to

Ever ever after

If we just don't get it our own way

Ever ever after

It may only be a wish away

Start a new fashion

Wear your heart on your sleeve

Sometimes you reach what's realest

By making believe

Unafraid, unashamed

There is joy to be claimed in this world

You even might wind up

Being glad to be you

Ever ever after

Though the world will tell you

It's not smart

Ever ever after

The world can be yours

If you let your heart

Believe in ever after

No wonder your heart

Feels it's flying

Your head feels it's spinning

Each happy ending's

A brand new beginning

Let yourself be enchanted

You just might break through

To ever ever after

Forever could even start today

Ever ever after

Maybe it's just one wish away

Your ever ever after

Ever ever ever after

(I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss)

For ever ever after"

"Ever Ever After" by Carrie Underwood

2009-03-06T08:35:00.001+08:00

my favourite song of the week at work! hahaz... i think im on a blogging spree!!!

" everybody go
the party's over
I want to be alone in my head
in my bed tonight
you never showed

you must really love her you
think I don't know
but I do, yeah it's true
I think over is over

I'm right back where I started
(when it comes to wanting you)
I can't have what I wanted

but I did, I can
I was, I am
only human, living, dying
just like any fool who ever breathed
if love is blind
if love's a drug
it always is
it always was and
love was surely made for fools like me

I know where I'm going
I'm tripping I'm sliding around
that's ok
at least I'm excited

it wasn't how I planned it
(wasn't how I planned it
feet are where I landed
at least I understand it now)
my feet are where I landed
(feet are staying on the ground)

but I did, I can
I was, I am
only human, living, dying
just like any fool who ever breathed
if love is blind
if love's a drug
it always is
it always was and
love was surely made for fools like me

fools like me
fools like me

I did, I can
I was, I am
only human, living, dying
just like any fool who ever breathed
maybe it's the sanest thing
or just the sweetest kind of dream
but love was surely made for fools
(Love was surely made for fools)
Love was surely made for fools
(Love was surely made for fools)
Love was surely made for fools like me"

"Fools Like Me" by Lisa Loeb

2009-03-06T08:30:00.000+08:00

Had 2 tics... Having Chalet... Can't go... passed it on... T.T

2009-03-04T14:30:00.005+08:00

OMG! im blogging from work!!! hahaz... okz fine... im BORED!!!

"How do you tell someone something they dont wanna hear?

And how do you tell someone about the object of their fear?

And how do say you changed my mind?I love you so.

How do you make someone love you, Someone love you, if they dont?"

"How?" by Natalise

2009-02-15T20:00:00.000+08:00

...daddy took down the chinese new year decors today...
like
FINALLY!!!

=)

2009-01-16T19:40:00.001+08:00

OMG!!! i want i want i want i want i want.... I WANT!!!

2009-01-15T22:06:00.000+08:00

Judgement Day over for my Daddy! He's SAFE! happy happy HAPPY!!! WOOH!!!

2009-01-09T23:30:00.001+08:00

the day 猪屁股 meet 猪头!!! hahaz...

2009-01-01T23:00:00.001+08:00

"Can you tell me, How can one miss what she’s never had
How could I reminisce when there is not past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Can someone tell me how can this be

How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate love that’s too late and
How could I really mean the words I’m about to say

I miss the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we used to kiss
At least in my dreams just let me take my time and reminisce

I miss the times that we never had
What happen to us, we were almost there
Who ever said it’s impossible to miss
What you never had, never almost had you"

Almost by Tamia

"Been sitting thinking about you and I

and wondering why were not getting along

so frustrated 'cause what we had was a happy home.

I don't know what the situation is but I can tell in the way we kiss

we don't talk no more it feels better when I'm alone

Sometimes I feel like there's no getting through to you

like you don't appreciate all that I do.

you gotta show me that you want me to stay

don't turn & walk away

baby I'm slowly falling out of love with you

I don't know what to do,

how did we end up here this way?

what are we gonna do?

I'm slowly falling out... baby

we're tripping on silly things

boy I need you to meet me halfway,

if you want me to be with you..."

Fallin' Out by Keyshia Cole

2008-12-21T10:30:00.002+08:00

found quite a few dam funny quotes this morning...

Cats are smarter than dogs. You can't get eight cats to pull a sled through snow.

- Jeff Valdez

Cat's motto: No matter what you've done wrong, always try to make it look like the dog did it.

-Unknown

Dogs come when they're called; cats take a message and get back to you.

- Mary Bly

Some people say man is the most dangerous animal on the planet.

Obviously those people have never met an angry cat.

- Lillian Johnson

Man is a dog's idea of what God should be.

- Holbrook Jackson

There is no psychiatrist in the world like a puppy licking your face.

- Ben Williams

In order to keep a true perspective of one's importance, everyone should have a dog that will worship him and a cat that will ignore him.

- Dereke Bruce

Horse sense is the thing a horse has, which keeps it from betting on people.

- W. C. Fields

How to ride a horse:

Step One - Mount the horse.
Step Two - Stay mounted.

-Unknown

Who among us has not as a child asked Santa Clause to bring us a pony on Christmas day?

-Unknown

2008-12-21T01:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY!!!

and to add to tat... i haven really felt this happy in a long long LONG WHILE!!!

Hahaz... Danzation 08 really DOPE!!!

though today i went back to do duty... it was fun...

even though mia and baowen ask me the freaking same questions and said the same things... and laughed at my situation!!!! hmph! no wonder why both are the VP... same same de... it was fun lar... i can't believe it... but i think i kinda miss backstage lor... the hecticness we go through and then we see the whole even successful... itz a freaking nice sensation!!! kai feng still pei me at the last part... then we made fun of my jimmy... =p... somehow... i think his name is sophan... he kinda remembered me from danzation 06 and fantazia 08... hahaz... shocking sia... met up with choy, kai feng, hannah and fuzzy... dam nice lar! long time never see them le... hahaz... fuzzy losing her voice... kai feng got sore eyes... saded... but they pulled through! heng i only reach hm at 12.30am but never get locked out this time...

HENG SIA!!! if not i think a few of them sure laugh again!!! hmph!

still need to bath and slp!!! later on!!! YANG ZHONG WEI MINI-CONCERT @ KALLANG CC!!!!

DAMIT!!! WORK NEVER ENDS!!!!!!! =(

...longing...

2008-12-16T00:20:00.001+08:00

my heart ached as i left school just now...

maybe i'm longing for something in school... or maybe i just don't want to go back to home's reality...

maybe both...

On a happier note!

was at school for the danzation 08 rehearsal!!! hahaz... 'sneak preview' for me!!!

it was DOPE!!!

sooo looking forward to 19th!!!

itz gonna be DOPE SHIT!!!

YAY!!! hahaz... =)

...smile...

2008-11-25T18:30:00.002+08:00

do you want to smile every day

...i know i would... and i really want to right now...

《因为你笑了》歌词 by Dr. Moon in the 原来我不帅 soundtrack...

我站在墙的角落拿着花在那颤抖

等待暗恋已久的你从我前面经过

只等一分钟像过了几个年头

洒狗血的台词已经背得滚瓜烂熟

学校里干嘛都不教有关爱情的课题

只教我们“三只小猪” 怎么当成语

父母只教健康教育像是如何避孕

其实我只想知道怎样表白爱情

距离慢慢缩短心跳慢慢的加快

满仓库好人卡的我真的不想再失败

来了完了完了怎样走出去最帅

冲出去一刹那煞不住还差点“扑街”

为何背好的台词一句都说不出来

只能望著你大大的眼睛然后说

hi hi

真的觉得好呆呆

捧著给你的花花

真的觉得完蛋蛋怎麼办

结果你笑了

一个微笑让空气变得更新鲜了

踩到大便也很快乐因为你笑了

一个简单幸福的动能会努力的

让你的笑永远存在著

明天就是我们乐团第一天表演

没剩下多少的时间练

吉他在我手指尖

合弦在我手指变

越弹越high

忘了现在是大家睡觉的时间

有个人开起了门脚步很沉

好像被我的吉他吵醒了

双眼好冷

原来是我的爸爸我最怕的人

就算他不张嘴我也能够听到对我的怒吼声

从小父亲说一我绝对不敢说二

任何的顶嘴都会被他狠狠的修理一顿

就算代沟再深我也只能忍

只能忍

渐渐的对他的感觉只有恨

只有恨

如今他在我的身边举起手向我挥

我已经作好被打的准备

闭上眼他的手却搭著我的肩

笑著说：“孩子加油明天要好好表现”

结果你笑了

一个微笑让世界变得更美丽了

掉到水沟也很快乐因为你笑了

一个简单幸福的动能会努力的

让你的笑永远存在著

我真的

不是要故意撞到你

在这昏暗的pub里

不要那麼生气

我已经说过对不起

看你腹肌! 胸肌!

OH NO! 还有三角肌! 哇靠!

背上的刺青还夹带著弹孔的痕迹

人那麼多也不知道逃生门在哪里

我真的不想变残废或是只剩半条命

想到等下的瘀青我卒仔到想哭泣

他却笑著对我说：“兄弟别怕没关系!”

结果你笑了

一个微笑让啦啦啦啦啦

唱错歌词也很快乐因为你笑了

一个简单幸福的动能会努力的

让你的笑永远存在著

after listening the more i wanna cry...

2008-11-24T16:30:00.003+08:00

screw misunderstandings... seriously... screw them...

dam sad over one rite now...

dunnoe wad to say...
dunnoe how to explain...
fuck this misunderstanding...

everyone has a different view...
some assume wad they shd not...
while some things... juz cannot be explained in words...
wanna juz forget it...
but nth goes away with a freaking snap of the fingers...
gonna take a while... till then...

seriously fuck misunderstandings...

是有所为或无所为...也不能改变什么...

2008-11-12T00:30:00.003+08:00

itz not my birthday yet... in a few more dayz... like *ahems*4 more dayz *coughs* ... =D

anyway Marshmallow celebrated my birthday for me tonite... really really appreciated... though last min again... hahaz... but then again... since when Marshmallow's outings were not last min... always has been and im guessing... always will be... =p

To my dear dear Marshmallows:

thankz for tonite... it was really enjoyable... though abit exp... it was fun and memorable... SL is not i not 感动 is i very very very long time never 感动 liao... so yar... no reaction... hahaz... ps abt not waving bye oso hor... 脚短 then cannot climb up the escalator fast enough...psps... =)

thinking back on his 'speech'... he said it might be the last birthday we celebrate... which i think abt it... is actually kinda true... if i have my life going according to plan... i shd be out of here by late april or early may... but nvm... we still have christmas and new year and chinese new year! hahaz...

hope u guyz liked the star i made! hahaz... i make during lunch de hor!!! went to steal straw from the canteen... hahaz... JJ if u cannot figure out how to make... one day i teach u... =)

the wallet arh... all i can say is 习惯难改... will take awhile...

now for 'replying' ur cards in the wallet... hahaz...

To SL:

l0lz! pri sch friend! din noe u soooooo 念旧... hahaz... touched lar... u still remember so much... i cannot even remember lor! i only remember got one time i follow u to the uncle shop near the playground and see u buy G-2 pen refill lar! coz i think was my first time i see G-2 de pen! hahaz! then i remember u monitor that time the mrs yam oso buay tahan u sia... hahaz... never fail to make the class laugh de... u oso never change lor... tatz why tat time first PSP meeting i one look can tell that i same class as u before... juz that wei qian confirmed it... hahaz =D... one day i wan go back bukit panjang sia... go see the sch again... maybe see the teachers tat are still there... then meet up with my friends again... hiazzzz... T.T... tat time i celebrate my 9th birthday at the Fajar Center McDonald's one day before i moved lor! dam sad lar! dat day i kept crying lar! okz lar... will stop here... hahaz... thankz for the wishes! i oso hope i stay happy and cheerful sia! XD

To Alvin:

e-llo! still got a few dayz of 18 first! 不想这样快老!!! hahaz... jkjk lar... thankz lar... i read again on sat, then will zun liao! like i told u lar... wallet=习惯难改!!! of course friend forever lar! alamak... hahaz... u be my BF(Best Friend) i be ur GF(Good Friend) ok? hahaz... u write until like i moving away to some far away country sia... if i really do i think u shed tears onto the paper le lar! =D

PS : ur handwriting really CMI de... =p

To Chun Rong:

wah seh... not bad not bad... hahaz... i made a good first impression sia! i think itz partially because the first time i met u was when we going ice-skating... then very high ma... then see u keep holding the sides like very poor thing ma... so keep helping u all... fast learner lar... at least faster than a certain someone... =p... life have up and down de... cannot always up de... some time will come down de... wah... that means u keep seeing me when my life down lar! bad bad... hahaz... i try have more up than down... =D

To Jia Jun & Phoebe:

l0lz... i din lump u two together for some certain reason hor... later SL kill me how... is so happen u two the messages similar... i made a wish at the fountain of wealth to replace the one not on the cake... next time give me cupcake then each one one candle! then got lots of wishes liao!!! hahahz! okz lar... anyway... lets hope it comes true! thankz for the happy birthday wishes!

ps: u 2 handwriting the best de! =D

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!!

nicky lyrics

2008-11-10T11:30:00.003+08:00

"谁能把悲伤从新洗牌... 谁能说这不是种安排..."

洗牌

"爱是无可取代的快乐"

无价快乐

"谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼...有时候忘了珍惜...伤害来的太无意..."

解脱

"天空很大...雨点很小...快乐要到哪里找...世界很大..."

刚刚好

"是我想太多...你總這樣說...但你確沒有真的心疼我..."

"是我想太多...我也這樣說...這是唯一能安慰我的理由..."

想太多

"做你的天...做你的晴天...帮你晒干所有眼泪..."

"做你的天...当你需要阴天...陪你安静一整夜..别管世界怎么变...我是你的天...我是你最爱那天..."

做你的天

"过几天...或几年...伤会好一点..."

"我想起你...你有了他...是否依然为了爱...变的很傻..."

"我想起你...你有一个他好久都...没说的话...你好吗..."

你好吗

"浪漫爱情故事中...主角不是我..."

"戏剧情节无厘头...嘲笑的是我..."

"情歌唱的再温柔...只有麦陪我..."

快点来爱我

"不知不觉...又过了几天...我想我习惯了忽略...去忽略没你的时间..."

"不近不远...走在谁身边...我想我适应了一切...这一切没你的时间..."

"某种熟悉但如今却刺眼..."

"谁都以为不听不看...也就没感觉...一转身才发现...空气里面...依旧飘散着记忆的气味..."

"是有所谓或无所谓...也不能改变...原来是我...在爱上你的那瞬间...就困在围墙里面..."

围墙

"你把我放在最後...说不出为什么...但就是拒绝不了你的请求..."

"别说...还想我...那会放大了我...心中最後一点寂寞..."

"别说...还爱我...那会摧毁了我...保持着距离的理由..."

"不是爱或不爱都能随口说..."

别说

"完美并不美...我们多虚伪...你让我的好...变成一种罪..."

"完美并不美...当你爱了谁...我的完美也只是...不完美..."

"你不是我...你怎么能体会你有...多么珍贵..."

不，完美

"睡觉...吃饭...从我的习惯...都证明你存在..."

坏习惯

all are 李玖哲 songs... hahaz... like i said im hooked to them... the next one is juz interesting... the way 林燕岑 managed to put the probs with chinese ping ying into a song... hahaz...

"你说哪里哪里不是问我要到哪里

(原来你是说不用太客气)

他说这什么东西不是真的在问东西

(原来他对你不是很客气)

想说的道地你笑到倒地我的口音 No Oh~

我有个秘密不是说咪咪我的发音 No Oh~

Ohohohoh 你不懂我的明白

Ohohohoh 这个字太难猜

Ohohohoh 你不懂我的明白

Ohohohoh Yayayaya

我说觉得好奇你却对我说 sorry

(原来你以为我觉得好气)

我说你好baby 你打了我非常 angry

(原来你以为我骂你卑鄙)

想说的道地你笑到倒地我的口音 No Oh~

我有个秘密不是说咪咪我的发音 No Oh~
Ohohohoh 你不懂我的明白
Ohohohoh 这个字太难猜
Ohohohoh 你不懂我的明白
Ohohohoh Yayayaya

想说的道地你笑到倒地我的口音 No Oh~

我有个秘密不是说咪咪我的发音 No Oh~

我的吗嘛嬷还是马麻骂

我只想说我的妈一个头两个大

大家都说我很棒还是在说我很胖?

大哥说我很丑还是说我很瘦?

Ohohohoh 你不懂我的明白

Ohohohoh 这个字太难猜

Ohohohoh 你不懂我的明白

Ohohohoh Yayayaya

你明白不明白

我说的明白我明白不明白

No Oh~ Yayayaya"

你不懂我的明白

...lovin' it...

2008-10-27T19:30:00.009+08:00

^李玖哲 - 做你的天^

I'm hooked to 李玖哲's songs again! =)

"女人的幸福在于他真的爱我
男人的幸福在于她值得我爱..."
"做你的天" MV by 李玖哲

report due tonite 12 midnite! wad the heck am i doing sia!!!!!! =.=

快点来爱我！！！by 李玖哲!!! Wooh!!! =D

note to self... i think i shd stop watching 原来我不帅... hahaz...

2008-09-28T13:00:00.000+08:00

got bored and did a quiz for fun, joy peace and laughter... and i was supposed to clean up my room!!! hahaz... im sooo dead when my parents get back... =D

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

link is here! if u wanna try... XD

2008-09-15T07:00:00.000+08:00

fuck. i screwed up again.

...life...

2008-07-28T16:00:00.004+08:00

I looked out the bus window this morning.

I saw a grandpa pushing his grandchild in a pram.

and I thought.

that child had a brief feeling of what life was gonna be.

like the ride he/she had just experienced.

it's a long ride to the destination.

not necessary smooth sailing.

neither bumpy all the way.

many routes to reach there.

choose one.

won't stop till you reach your destination.

just like life.

it goes on, no matter what happens.

might be happy or sad along the journey.

but then again, that's just life.

there will be times to laugh.

and so there will be times to cry as well.

sometimes we get what we want.

sometimes we don't.

that's life again.

but one thing for sure.

we don't live life alone.

just like the grandpa to his grandchild.

we will always have someone.

to love us. to support us.

to provide us with that little push when we really need it.

I wanna thank those around me who have been the "grandpa"s to me... =)

"Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't....

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight..."

"A Thousand Miles" by "Vanessa Carlton"

NAPFA

2008-07-24T15:38:00.003+08:00

waiting for NAPFA rite now... i wanna PASS!!! freaking standing broad jump and 2.4km!!!!

...tired...

2008-07-15T11:13:00.002+08:00

at MA2 tutorial rite now... but of course not mentally here again... long time since i updated... dam tired and shag rite now... alot of ppl ard me also seem this way... firstly, my grp mates... they work like hell... but i dunnoe how to help them sometimes... coz i really don't get it... they look so darn tired rite now... next, my classmates... they look equally tired... coz they also have been rushing the same bloody projects... choy, nadia and wei xuan oso looked a lil shag yesterday... esp wei xuan... hahaz... he looked like he in a freaking bad mood lar! like he gonna wack ppl up... kai feng sounds dam shag and tired online... and to add to it... she's freaking busy... met bao wen yesterday too... he looked stressed out and drained... xing xian also looked dam shag... then somemore he wait for me 10 mins... l0lz... feel so bad lar... then after that i met denise and danielle at the busstop... they looked a lil tired but at least they were somehow dam high!!!hahaz... but i bet is because they juz came from gym... when i get onto the bus i see a least like half of the bus is asleep... hiazzzz...

don't know if itz just because i'm shag and tired that everyone around me looks that way too... could be so... hahaz... our own conditions affects our perspective most of the time... i hope it's true... coz having so many tired people ard is no good at all...

EVERYONE JIA YOU!!!APPROX ONE MORE MONTH OF SCHOOL THEN THE HOLS WILL COME!!!

but the comes attachment.....................................

hahaz... trying to get high myself in class... abit siao liao... anyway... i'll do a lil update...

4thJuly08

had Marshmallow 2nd anniversary dinner at the HK cafe at Kovan... din feel like taking any photos dat day... so dun have any photos with my face... i guess... and hope! =) after that we went to play pool for a while... i seriously suck at it... not only coz of my bad wrist... but i juz seriously cannot make it for pool anymore... SL wanted to go bowling... but Alvin said no... coz of my wrist... hahaz... too bad... =p

6thJuly08

celebrated HWJ's birthday before he going for his NS on last thursday... he ask me bring speaker in the end din really use... then somemore spill curry over the box... heng my speakers not inside at tat time... his b'dae is actually on the 27th of august... but he insisted tat he wanted to celebrate earlier... coz he say he din want his 21st birthday photos to show him botak... hahaz... played daidi and mahjong... i play mahjong no skill de... actually hu... but then i say pong... then i say hu again... then xiaobai keep scolding me lor! hmph! then HWJ dam funny... zhenling's bro actually already guessed correctly what was the gift tat we gave him... but HWJ saw got tamil words through the wrapping paper... then he keep asking us how come his PS3 made in India one!!! actually the tamil words were from the frist layer of wrapping paper... then he kept harping on it the whole nite lar!

10th-11thJuly08

Poly X'perience 08 @ NP!!! wasn't suppose to be invovled... but i juz dropped by and suddenly became involved... i'm guessing that the excuse letters from lessons tempted me... hahaz... i skipped out on simon tan's tutorial... then i went up to pass him the letter juz in case i would forget this week... he's reaction was quite funny... but was quite expected from him... then i got pissed off of kelvin... dunnoe is he nervous or wad... convention centre became conventional centre... Coral secondary school became Coral sec secondary school... malay cultural club became malay cultural group... nth to say... haizzzz...

12thJuly08

went to watch NDP rehearsal fireworks with a few of the bacomm peeps... actually i went to marina square first... coz xiaobai dunnoe the way to the place where we got HWJ's birthday gift... and we needed to change a part of the model we bought for him... i wanted to go woodlands to see the bazzar... in the end i concluded tat i had no money... so i shd not go... then the bacomm peeps came from there to city hall... to watch fireworks from the NDP rehearsal... it was a nice time for me to take my mind off things for a while... so i went with them to the merlion where we sat there until like 8.30pm... the fireworks were dam nice and dam close!!! i'll upload the photos another day... dun have them with me now...

anyway... abit pek chek over my wrist... i hurt my right wrist last last sunday... i also dunnoe what the hell i did... juz kinda pulled the jing too much i guess... now i cannot write too fast or too much... as for my piano... i cannot play octaves without hurting... bloody pek chek... cannot really play my exam pieces very well now... cannot play my Marriage D'amor nicely oso... coz mostly octaves... hiazzzzzzz... guess the only thing i can really do now is what ah gek said lor... rest and hope it gets better fast... =)

"Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it’s hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I’m two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I’m stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

’cause maybe there’s another plan
One I still can’t see
A little surprise, like Your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time"

Everything in it's time by Corrine May

2008-06-16T18:00:00.003+08:00

[Gabriella]

I gotta say what's on my mind

Something about us

doesn't seem right these days

Life keeps gettin in the way

Whenever we try, somehow the plan

Is always rearranged

It's so hard to say

But I've gotta do what's best for me

You'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am

I just don't belong here

I hope you understand

We might find our place in this

World someday

But at least for now

I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind

But I get my hopes up

And I watch them fall everytime

Another colour turns to grey

And it's just too hard to watch it all

Slowly fade away

I'm leaving today 'cause I

Gotta do what's best for me

You'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am

I just don't belong here

I hope you understand

We might find our place in this

World someday

But at least for now

I gotta go my own way

[Troy]What about us?

What about everything we've been through?

[Gabriella]What about trust?

[Troy]You know I never wanted to hurt you

[Gabriella]what about me?

[Troy]What am I supposed to do?

[Gabriella]I gotta leave but I'll miss you

[Troy]I'll miss you

[Gabriella]SoI've got to move on and be who I am
[Troy]Why do you have to go?
[Gabriella]I just don't belong hereI hope you understand

[Troy]I'm trying to understand

[Gabriella]We might find our place in this

World someday

But at least for now

[Troy]I want you to stay

[Gabriella]I gotta go my own way

I've got to move on and be who I am

[Troy]What about us?

[Gabriella]I just don't belong here

I hope you understand

[Troy]I'm trying to understand

[Gabriella]We might find our place in this

World someday

But at least for now

I gotta go my own way

I gotta go my own way

Gotta Go My Own Way by Vannessa Hudgens & Zac Efron

2008-06-12T22:00:00.003+08:00

thought i'd get back to blogging after MIA for such a long time... Basically had Common Tests, then went to JB over the weekend and then had COMM Camp 4... next thing coming up is Envoys Camp... and the bloody project deadlines...

having a whole mix of emotions right now... but first i really wanna thank ah gek for scolding me back to reality that nite... he showed me why my life is so bloody screwed up rite now... but seriously now is a lil too late to change it... and also at the wrong time... so i kinda have to live with it and at the first opportunity change it... im sure i'll be happy with my choices one day... juz u wait and see... =)

was on the phone with derek juz now... toking abt yesterday's debrief... it wasn't exactly pleasant... but at least things got trashed out and hopefully they can understand each other better and work things out... when they were trashing stuff out... i personally felt for samantha, qingfu and su ern... they were in the exact position i was one year ago... breaking down... parents nagging... friends not really supportive... grades slipping like hell... it juz brought tears for me... i never felt that anyone shd have to go through all that juz for something they want to do and then be so fucking stressed out and then feel like itz an obligation rather than wad they wanna do... itz really not fun... i still remember my parents will lock the gate and not let me in if i reach hm after 11.30pm... then i would stand outside until my dad decides to let me in... parent pressure is no fun... same to peer pressure... my friends were asking me to put down bacomm after the RD last year... they meant well lar... they felt that i was being used and stuff... coz they felt that i was doing a lot of sai kang myself... at that point of time... i used to blame bacomm for my plight as well... i always felt that "hey! how come i end up doing all the publicity stuff until 12 mid and still not done... dammit! because of bacomm i cannot get my sleep... then im gonna nap in tutorials all over again!"... it was until alex debriefed me... then i realised it was really my own fault... i didn't open my mouth and ask... so how the hell would they know... then it results in all the miscomm and misunderstandings... which make ppl so pek chek with each other... then i finally understood that if i really cannot do it... juz say... itz nothing pai seh... juz be transparent with one another... then also you can understand why the person said this and tat too... then u noe why he or she can or cannot help u... i mean like... i won't juz ignore ur plea for help and watch the event fail ma... i oso wanna watch the event be sucessful... then of course i will help u juz to make it sucessful ma... though yar lar... depending on different people... whether after they help u and then bitch ard abt u itz a different thing... if they do... then tatz a sad story... and i noe how dam sad that is coz it has happened to me before... and it really pushes a person down alot... it hurts... hiazzzz... i really hope su ern, pei shan, huiying and ernie sort out their differences soon... itz really frigging sad to see a grp of friends formed through this interest grp juz dissolve their friendship over misunderstandings juz coz they are in the exco now... itz heartbreaking... coz itz like... hey we the previous exco made this choice to put them in it... and it sours their wonderful friendship... itz not worth it... i remember marvin said the same thing... if we are juz gonna do things in bacomm juz we have to... and in the end feel so pek chek and pissed with each other... then he rather close down bacomm... coz the main purpose he formed bacomm was coz he wanted it to be some place where ppl of the same interest come to have fun... i guess every new leader has to go through this phase... i juz hope they pull through it fast...

this is to marshmallows... i dunnoe wad to say... i juz kinda feel drifted from you guyz... i mean like... i dun feel anything common with u all anymore... you all seldom tell me anything anymore... and even if u all do... i still need to rack my brains and think if itz the truth or nt... itz dam tiring... u all make it sound like im so god dam free juz coz im not working... and i have a maid at hm... got parents that sometime fetch me ard... i dunnoe lar... i juz feel that... when i hang out with u guyz the last few times... i juz feel that i dun really belong there anymore... like you 5 are better off without dragging me ard... im juz forming restrictions for u all when u all go out...

Phoebe wanna Lalala says:
den can i book u fer dinner?

Phoebe wanna Lalala says:
planning of having marshmallow dinner

Phoebe wanna Lalala says:
cos 2 jul is our 2 year liaoz

i can only promise you guyz i'll try and think about it... maybe you all are seriously better off without me... then you all dun need think so much abt where to eat when to meet and stuff... for the 5 of u all... the schedule seems easier to meet up... i rather u all go ahead without me... so sorry if this is gonna hurt any of u... i noe alvin gonna scold fuck the moment he sees this... phoebe probably will try and convince me... SL probably will also do the same... jia jun probably will juz sigh... chunrong probably wldn't know how to react... sure i miss the times we went out... those memories will stay... thankz for them... i really appreciate the times u all helped me when i was down and all... oso for my first time at kbox... first time at vivo... u guyz ate the first tiramisu i made... first time mahjong was played at my hse... first time my friends stayed over at my place... first time i stayed out till pass 12 mid... first time i took the nite bus... first time i spent new year counting down with friends... and many many more first times... maybe if i split from u all even better still... then u all dun need to rack ur brains for lies and test me on my reaction on jia jun =P! hahaz... i guess i juz need to think it through now... dun worry... i really will alrite? i juz hope u all will respect my decision no matter wad... =)

getting back to ah gek... if u read this... like i said before... thankz alot for being there... though u were dam busy and sick... so sorry to take up ur project time as well... i feel so dam guilty lar... coz not first time liao... i let u play GTA and DJ Max on my psp more ok?? hahaz... i think i'll seriously miss u when u go china for ur attachment lar! T.T... thankz for the knock back to reality... really needed it... i bet after that knock... i wun breakdown all the way till at least end of this sem! oh yar... eeyore getting old liao... i wan another one! hahaz! =P my bjrthday ok?? jkjk only lar... i still love it... can u bloody hell go find the dagger i gave u last time... so bad lar! i give u... then u say u love it... then u lose it... hiazzzz...

as u can see im beginning to crap already... so i'll juz end here...

i will make my life change, by making decisions with want i want in my life... the moment i have the chance to... i will... i dun care how long it might take... but i promise myself i will...

"Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways
To let you go

I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you, yeah

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And tommorow can never be
'Cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways
To let you go"

Never had a Dream Come True by S Club 7

"却不再为你醉
至少已经学会

自己照顾自己的胃
习惯空虚相随
有时饿了想要你喂
累了想要你安慰
孤单想要你来陪
有时想把时间倒回"

Hey Baby by 黄立成 & Machi

a photo i thought i'd upload... took this during the war games at comm camp... abit sucky quality coz use my hp camera... when i get the better version from xing xian i'll upload it... =)

MIA

2008-05-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

2008-05-15T12:30:00.001+08:00

freaking sleepy now!!! i wanna go hm and slp!!! but the heat is so dam strong! argh! lazy to travel hm such a heat wave.... hiazzzz.... yesterday nite went yuki yaki with marshmallows' ... they make me sound soo picky lar! im not! i juz eat alot less... is it a crime to not eat alot?!?!? reached hm at ard 11.30pm... Jia Jun bluff lar! say can reach hm at 10pm... hmph! i nearly kena scolding... heng that whenn my dad drive me hm... Jie Yong call me for MA2 answers... then on the phone... so my dad cannot say much... then forgot to scold... hehe... supposed to do the CLAW tutorial last nite... ended up falling aslp after chatting on the phone with Raphael... chat till ard 1.30am lar! =p ah gek gonna scold when he sees this... hahaz... Raphael that idiot lar! living in his fantasy world in the small well of his...=p hahahahaz...

woke up late today... supposed to wake up at 6am... ended up slping till 7.30am... then rushed out CLAW tutorial on the bus to school...met ah gek in the morning before heading for lessons... again cooped up in his photography room... his phone spoil lar!!! call him never pick up!!! sms never reply...idiot! hmph! waiting for lunch to be over now... then going for TAX 2 lecture... GOT AIR-CON!!!! i guess that means im going... hahaz...

"I can't help but wait
Ohh uh
Can't help but wait

I see you, you with him
He ain't right but you don't trip
You stand by while he lies
Then turn right round and forgive

I can't take to see your face
With those tears runnin down your cheeks
But what can I do I gotta stay true
Because deep down I'm still a G
And I don't want to come between you and your man
Even though I know I treat you better than he can

Girl I can't help but wait
Till you get that with him it don't change
Can't help but wait
Till you see that with me it ain't the same
Can't help but wait
Till you see you for what you really are
Baby girl you are a star
And I can't help but wait

It aint fresh to just let him call the shots
You're a queen you should be
Gettin all that someone's got
You should be rockin the latest and purses
Bracelets and watches you're worth
Much more than that occasional I know that I love you
I'm thinking of you and I don't wanna come
Between you and your man no
Even though I know I treat you better than he can

Girl I can't help but wait
Till you get that with him it don't change
Can't help but wait
Till you see that with me it ain't the same
Can't help but wait
Till you see you for what you really are
Baby girl you are a star
And I can't help but wait

Get it together
You can do better
See is believin
And I see what you need so
I'm going to play my position
Let you catch what you've been missing
I'm calling out

Girl cuz I can't help but wait
Till you get that with him it don't change
Can't help but wait
Till you see that with me it ain't the same
Can't help but wait
Till you see you for what you really are
Baby girl you are a star

And I can't help but wait
Till you get that with him
It don't change
Can't help but wait
Till you see that with me it ain't the same
Can't help but wait
Till you see you for what you really are
Baby girl you are a star
And I can't help but wait

Can't help but wait babe nonono
I can't help but wait
Ohohoh
Can't help wait No oh no oh no oh"

"Can't Help But Wait" by Trey Songz

2008-05-14T11:00:00.002+08:00

time to update again... long time since i updated... AGAIN!!! but first... replying to tags... lazy to type on the tagboard... =p

f3ng: yeah... thankz... dun worry lar... i wun forgot how free u have always been... =p but seriously lar... thankz... btw... i juz found ur b'dae present from last yr... suppose to pass to u tat day u came my place to watch cartoon... kinda forgot...

pak: see lar! all ur fault lor! no more crappy msn convos, tatz why emo! hmph! hahaz...thankz for the encouragement arh... but seriously lar... miss those times we kept cursing and WACKING EACH OTHER'S HEAD! yr 1!!! T.T

art kong!: though u never tag! i noe u read anyway! bloody hell!!! dun use emo kid on me again! *bish BASH* i dun wanna grow up!!! hahaz...

alrite... now time to get on with the udpate... gonna be suuupppppppeeerrrr long...
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5th May 2008

met ah gek in the morning at sch... was singing all the way till lunch!!! i nearly cried though listening to "当你孤单你会想起谁"... ah gek dun worry lar... wasn't ur *coughs* excellent singing... juz the lyrics lar... those who wan the lyrics...

"你心情总在飞
什么事都要去追
想抓住一点安慰
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味

你的心那么脆
一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑

但是天总会黑
人总要离别
谁也不能永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味
谁都要面对
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫

当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲
只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回

当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲
只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回

你的快乐伤悲
只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回"

ok lar... ah gek singing i rate er... 4 stars! happy?? hahaz... coz u did make me laugh... by trying to sing songs u obivously cannot reach... hahaz! sorry tat i disrupted ur studying time again! hahaz... a quote from u "love ya lots yar!" =p

anyway... i got a 500GB harddisk! hahaz... finally... and also... i had a free laptop skin... i used my bro's name in a lucky draw and got it... hahaz... but i gave it to jimmy... coz my family dun dig these kind of things... my dad wld probably kill me if i pasted anything on my Baby lappy...

then after that i took the bus to jurong east to meet alvin, chun rong and jia jun... met daren therre oso... then he took the clementi... and we took to outram to meet phoebe... then we went to serangoon to makan dinner... wanted to go chomp chomp... but was full so we went to the nearby hawker centre to makan instead... then they came to my hse to play mahjong... the 3 guyz bathe together lor! omg lar! they take so long nvm leh... but the whole floor so wet... then pluz they made alot of noise... hiazzzz... then i played Marriage D'Amor and 大男人·小女孩... i oso juz played through 童话 for them... haven't played it in a very long time... then when i played it... brought back quite a number of bad memories... juz dunnoe why... no matter how long it has been.. the memories still stay... then after tat i went to bathe... then played mahjong with them... all this arrangement was hush hush... coz my parents wouldn't allow it... hehe... and they were in JB! all zao fan! hahaz... my bro came hm late and my maid went out till the next morning! REBEL! hahaz... i won the first 2 rounds! hahaz... my feng shui wei!!!after tat alvin sat there when SL came... and he oso won a few rounds... hahaz... then i fell aslp and they went to find supper... they came back at ard 3 pluz... then slept till 6.30am and chased them out! hahaz... coz my uncle KC coming to bring me to m'sia... later he see them then im busted! hahaz..

ok last part i hope... my uncle KL has fingerprint like Mas Selemat! hahaz.. coz now the causeway they take the thumbprint as well... for those who dun noe... hehez... he was scanning his finger... then the officer kept asking him to scan... then dunnoe wan let him pass or nt... hahaz... coz he's a new zealander... who is chinese... yet dark coz he plays golf... so i can't really blame the officer... they went to london last nite... 11pm flight! 13 hrs to get there! i wanna go!!! hahaz...

2008-05-05T20:50:00.005+08:00

i hit emo rock-bottom & broke down again juz now on the bus... 2nd time already since this sem started... usually i juz hit emo... but the extreme is breaking down... the early time i broke down this sem, i called pakwing... dunnoe why... but i juz did... thankz for being there ah gek! but this time i kinda juz kept to myself... maybe coz i wanna juz like train myself... coz i guess next year ard this time... i wouldn't be in SG anymore... but most probably alone at Perth... if all goes according to plan... or rather my parent's plan...

i dun really noe wad broke me down... juz how much reality hit me when i still can't do my tutorials... or that im really alone on the bus rides now... or how much i juz miss some crappy chats... up till now i still can't figure it out... i wanted to walk ard at the pasar malam at amk juz now... but i juz realised it ended yesterday... hiazzzz... i was waiting for my 76 after alighting from 74... then i guess the emo-ing juz kinda got worse... even chiat lin on the bus tat juz pass by can sms me lor "y so emo at the busstop..." din noe wad to reply... so i juz typed "Emo jiu emo lor..."... probably tatz wad prompted me to sms pakwing... "T.T... I cannot believe i emo-ing again..."... then he replied "You alrite?"... but i only could reply him "U noe wad... i seriously dun noe..."... i guess he figured nt to sms me back, some space cld do me a lil gd... i don't know why.... but every single bus tat passed by... i kinda felt that i was looking for someone who was gonna alight from one of the buses... i guess i din't meet tat someone before i got onto my 76... coz my mood din change from then at all... after alighting from 76... i decided to walk home... only tat i din exactly go home... i went walking... juz walking on and on... it juz seemed that the walking din hurt my sprained foot at that time... so i juz kept walking... till i reached hm ard slightly pass 8... must have walked ard the estate at least 2-3 times... since i left sch at ard 5.30pm...

skipped my dinner abit and went to shower... ended up juz eating a slice of home-made pizza.... took near one and a half hrs juz to eat tat slice... really no appetite... was reading through the msn message history with pakwing while eating... thought it might cheer me up a lil... since our chats in yr 1 was really very crappy... usually started and ended with us trying to kill each other... there was tons of nice memories stored in there... esp yr 1... then slowly... the conversations juz got drifted apart... more and more it looked like i was chatting with myself... no more cursing and swearing... no more shooting each other down... i guess... we juz kinda made our conversations mature... no more kidding ard... or more like no more time to kid ard... time is running out... next sem is attachment... i need to pull myself together... no more time to be playing ard anymore...

letter to self

Dear Samantha Then Hui Ting,

plz buck up... u don't have anymore time to be goofing abt... u've been doing that already for the pass 4 sems... leave the last 2 sems for working... alrite? look ard u... ppl are getting GPA of 3 pts and above... something which u have only gotten once... ppl are also comparing As and ADs... something which you have only gotten Once! not even the AD... only the A... how to pull up to at least a 3.3 har!!! u think u superman har... look at those ard u... they can at least do their tutorials... can u?? u can't even get pass question 1 anymore... u are nt to walk ard aimlessly again... u will only waste precious time... which u are badly in need of now... u need to start mugging! something which u only do during study wk... and see where it got u exactly... no more gaming... no more anime... no more going out or chatting... now wad matters is ... Hm--> do tutorials --> study... no more others... done...

regards,

...sam...

"And I'd give up forever to touch you

'Cuz I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

'Cuz sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight...

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive...

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cuz I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am"

"Iris" by Ronan Keating

~11.45pm~

2008-05-05T10:30:00.000+08:00

congrats to Pheobe and SL... though again i last to know... but yar... congrats... hahaz... catch up with u all real soon yar...

2008-04-28T11:00:00.002+08:00

...probably the first person who can make an evil smile look so gay...

I took that photo at CCA Fiesta '08... was playing with Raphael's DSLR, while he was playing on the keyboard... then Pakwing just had to disturb him by playing with the octave scroll! hahaz...

"You know I love music
And every time I hear something hot
It makes me wanna move
It makes me wanna have fun
But it’s something about this joint right here
This joint right here
Its makes me wanna…..Woooh

Let it go……
Can’t let this thing called love get away from you
Feel free right now, going do what you want to do
Can’t let nobody take it away, from you, from me, from we
No time for moping around, are you kidding?
And no time for negative vibes, cause I’m winning
It’s been a long week, I put in my hardest
Gonna live my life, feels so good to get it right

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my vibe right
I aint gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just fine

Feels so good, when you’re doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
Keep your head up highIn yourself, believe in you, believe in me
Having a really good time, I’m not complaining
And I’m a still wear a smile if it raining
I got to enjoy myself regardless
I appreciate life, I’m so glad I got mine

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
Aint worried about you and what you gonna do
I’m a lady so I must stay classy
Got to keep it hot, keep it together
If I want to get better
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine

I aint gon’ let nothing get in my way(I ain't gone let nobody bring me down, no, no, no)
No matter what nobody has to say(No way, no way, no way)
I ain’t gon’ let nothing get in my way
No matter what nobody has to say

Feels so good, when you’re doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
It’s a really good thing to say
That I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I ain’t gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just fine"

"Just Fine" by Mary J Blige

2008-04-23T11:00:00.000+08:00

...too little.too late...

2008-04-20T01:00:00.002+08:00

got a lot of updating to do... hahaz... haven really had time... but i guess... nthing much to update about... update another time when im a lil more less sick... kena fever last nite... pluz cough and flu... but at least the fever is gone... juz tat the flu got kinda worse...

anyway... juz got back from brenda's to pick up the notes for the past wk's lecture... which i missed for NRA rehearsals... lookz like quite a lot... dam i shd nt have missed... hahaz... but then i think about the fun things tat happened during the rehearsals... quite worthwhile... l0lz! for tat one whole wk with the NRA ppl... it was tiring... yelling for them and all... but overall was fun... yay! and i got all their dance songs! hahaz... caught up with friendz i haven seen in a long while like Choy, Jefferson, KaiFeng and Baowen... esp Baowen lar! i still remember the last rehearsal yesterday... he freaking dam high! he finish his item... waiting for the next... go and hide in the curtains and scare ppl... then weiqian and me went the other side to poke his back... then when he turned to us we both pointed to ping yuan to take the blame... hahaz!!! ping yuan was saved coz baowen's next item was already starting... l0lz!

hiazzzz... over le... gonna miss those hetic but fun dayz... juz now the walk to brenda's and back did me some gd... at least it cooled me down abit... not only literally... but in the mind oso... coz juz now kinda argued with pakwing... he keep asking me to rest... but i insisted that i get the notes and do abit of my tutorials first... coz i juz felt guilty for nt attending lectures last wk... when i always told myself that the first and the last lectures of the sem is a cannot miss... i was already planning to do this since last wed when i knew that i had to skip my thurs and fri lectures... i guess the only thing unforeseen was my health condition... i feel bad towards him oso lor... i think he kena his cough from me... when i was playing with his camera... coz tat nite i was already coughing... but i only realised it at the end of the day... pluz yesterday suddenly had fever... and nearly ended up in an accident... juz coz i mistook the green arrow for green man... then the taxi choing past rite in front of me... so juz now he was gonna slp already... then he was trying his best to convince me to slp... i kept saying no... then i guess he got fed up... "fine, go ruin your health"... i at first oso pek chek... then after walking... i guess i let my stubborness get the better of me... funny how things juz change from nice to bad... he was juz trying to get me to rest... ended up in an argument... now i feel even worse... he oso sick.. then i still make him so pissed off... hiazzzz.... kinda reminds me of my mum oso... how we always end up in arguments... so sorry lar ah gek... dun worry... i oso must get better faster... if nt next time u bully me... i confirm lose! then will really be very jia lat... ok?

"我最爱的音乐会重复一百遍

每一次谈恋爱都成熟了一点

今天你打雷雨天我才不妥协

只要有地图我就敢冒险...

快乐随时存在拒绝浪费时间...

我看见前方精彩的路线

我要我的世界口味最特别

感动加上调味就会很完美

我要我的直觉天天都新鲜

就算时间没变我还是最耀眼..."

"C 大调" by 张韶涵

2008-03-31T23:00:00.004+08:00

time for alot of updating at one shot again... hahaz... this photo was shot at serangoon stadium... saw some secondary school having sports day... made me think of my of past sports dayz... i juz hated sports day... other than leaving school early... is really go there and do nth if u are nt involved... after sec one... i was involved with my girl guide duties... which was... to serve water... l0lz lar... the other duty tat very few had the chance to do was to pass the prizes to the person who was gonna give the prize away...

anyway... tat day.... i was on my way to my ah gek's place in BEDOK!!! u noe how far tat is from Kovan?!?!?!? but heng lar.... i got my bus concession... so i took bus to paya lebar... then change to mrt... then he still make me wait for him at the interchange lar! so dam long somemore... hiazz... actually i go his hse oso no objective de... hahaz... juz go see see baz... then in the end he ask me teach him how to play the 不能说的秘密... i tat day then realised he was a scholar... "Top in Level 1.2", "Top in Level 1.1", "Awarded Scholarship" etc.... everything framed and place on the piano... hiazzz... 聪明人....

i traded my psp for his laptop... so tat i could choose my photos for someone's present... hehehe... then he siao de lor! plug in my psp to his speakers... then blast... if he was playing audition... i wouldn't mind sia... but no leh!!! he was playin GTA!!! so itz like u can keep hearing him kill ppl... gunshots... people screaming... police cars chasing after him...
oh yar... his table had alot of his baby photos... but i think this one the cutest le... look so blur!!! hahaz... anyway... had dinner at his hse oso... at first i din want to makan at his place... coz my maid had already cooked dinner... but then his mum insisted... so i ate lor... then he hor........... say i eat more nvm... coz juz 变肥 only wad... then his mum say him lor... yay... his mum help me wor... hahahahaz... then he still bully me lar! i wan put back ard 3/4 of the food... at first he dun let me lor... only put back 1/2 of the food... hmph! in the end i still won! hahaz... then i left his place ard 8pm... after i had disturb Raphael online... and knocked my head against his bed... got hit by a dart... helped him load Age of Empires 2... hahaz... arthur kong! i know u will read this! i repeat! i was NOT on his bed when i knocked the side of his bed! hmph! tat statement of urs already had itz consequences on ur envoys blog... hahahahaz... he pei me back to the bedok interchange... then i went back myself... lucky... coz my parents were hm later than me... yesh! if nt i would have gotten quite alot of questioning...

"I drift, I burn, I fly
When you sing lullabies
I'm helpless, I'm yearning
I'm like the putty in your hands

I laugh, I dream, I cry
When you take me on a roller coaster ride
You see me through and through
You see just who i am
Just take my hand and

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows, Heaven knows I've been waiting for you...

...Before i met you
Life was slow-mo So slow-mo
I thought i had it figured out
But you came and turned my whole world upside down"

"Save Me" by "Corrine May"

2008-03-26T10:30:00.000+08:00

update abit about yesterday before i go AMK hub to meet Hong Ying for 'Rule #1' and pool and shopping for prezzie... hahaz...

met ah gek yesterday... was supposed to meet at 10am... in the end i was dam early... i reached at 9.30am... then waited for him for ard 10 mins... then he still wan play with me... argh! he came out of the mrt station but i didn't see him... then he came and stood behind me without making a sound... make me walk one round and come back before i realised he was there... argh!!!

then we walked to the Fuji Xeron centre... then i dunnoe why.... but we took the goods lift... and ended up at the back door of the Nikon service centre... omg lar! still we juz acted normal and slowly walked to the front desk... hahaz... then he went to the counter and i played my psp... play until very pek chek... cannot pass the level... hiazzz... then he ok le... he came back and played... and he passed!!! i guess im juz not suited to play games... then we decided to go catch a movie... he wanted to go tampanies... coz near his place... coz after tat was supposed to go his place and look at photos... hahaz... in the end we went vivo to catch 11 pluz or 12 pluz de shows... he paid for the tics... yay!!! thank you ah gek! hahaz...

we watched 10,000BC... actually was a movie i never thought of watching... it was ok only lar... i wanted to watch 'the orhpanage'... but he didn't... so since he paying... then okz lor... dun watch lor... after the movie... he went home... coz his dad needed him to do something... he asked me to go... i decided not... hahaz... too far sia... in the end i went to my second home... Hong Ying's house... at bishan...

i go there... wanted to watch 'Enchanted' with her... in the end watch for 30 mins... the dvd got problem... hiazzz... end up watch 老夫子... i watch until slp... hahaz... i slept max 10 mins lar... then after tat went to go buy bubble tea with her... then went home...

long day yesterday... oh yar... my ah gek bought for me the Eeyore hp accessory from HK... yay!!! then he oso passed me another accessory... he said tat my Eeyore probably wun last pass 3 mths... so the other one is to ding first... lest i bother him... hahaz... i dun care lor! i'll make sure the Eeyore will last at least half a year! =p

"I don't wanna lose you I don't wanna use you

Just to have sombody by my side

I don't wanna hate you I don't wanna take you

But I don't wanna be the one to cry

That don't really matter to anyone anymore

But like a fool I keep losing my place

And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much

And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust

There's a reason why people don't stay where they are

Baby sometimes love just ain't enough"

"Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough" by "Stefanie Sun"

2008-03-26T10:00:00.000+08:00

What Then Hui Ting, Samantha Means

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

updates

2008-03-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

as usual.... i haven really been updating... time to do it again... i guess is juz tat im too lazy to log in and update... anyway... yay!!! my crap ah gek is back from HK... hahaz... at least he got me something this time... gonna get it 2mr when i meet him to pei him fix his camera... at tanjong pagar!!! so bloody far...okz... anyway... back to upadating... came back from envoys leadership camp already... 2 more camps coming my way... a chalet before school starts... i announce tat im booked by phoebe lum ke-yin from 11apr - 12 apr!!! hahaz... happy phoebe?? l0lz...
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~Marshmallow's Good Friday Outing~

...outside fullerton hotel...

...the supper...

...Chunrong & Jiajun...

...the new "couple"...
...Jiajun & Phoebe...

...the sad ex...

...obviously they dun care. hahaz...

...the guyz...
...the gals...

...the singles.hee...

...night view...

went to watch spiderwick with SL and JJ at ard 7.30pm... coz i no choice... needed to be out of the house by 7pm if i'm gonna stay out for supper... coz i'm not allowed to leave the house to after 7pm... other than going to brenda's place... hahaz... so yar... anyway... the movie was great... the interesting storyline was there and easy to follow... even JJ who was late could catch up with the storyline... the graphics were quite realistic... though being goblins and all... they fit in their surroundings perfectly... after tat we walked from cineleisure all the way to city hall to meet phoebe, chunrong and alvin... after tat we walked to lau pa sha... seriously lor... lau pa sha is like where we go always... after tat went home... and dam was i late... i erached hm ard 1 pluz am... heng my dad let me off... lucky my mum in m'sia...

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BAComm Exco Lunch

i guess i need not say more... the photos said it all...

Welcome to our new BA_COMMunications committee!!!

*Clap Clap*

wad can i say... i woke up late for my piano lesson coz of the earlier nite... then i finished my lesson at ard 11.30am... then i realised that if i din hurry up i'd probably be late... lucky though my dad was unhappy abt the earlier nite... he let me out of the house still... heng sia!!! he juz complaining tat i was at hm for less than 12 hrs and i was going out again... hee... thankz daddy! =)

"Here's a story of a girl,

Living in the lonely world,

A hidden note,

A secret crush,

A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,

And when you smile I check you out,

But you don't even know my name,

Your too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,

If you lose your way,

I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,

If I change my clothes,

Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,

If i say hello,

Will you notice me?

Whats it gonna take for you to see

I want you to notice me,

I'll get you notice me."

"Notice Me" by "Zetta Bytes"

2008-03-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

At Envoys Leadership Camp now... dam shag... itz day 1 for the candidates for the exco... or as so they refer them as P-Exco... for the rest of us... itz already our second day... hahaz... anyway... today had timetable selection... got into class 09... elective MA2... seems like a quite zai timetable... the thing for me... is tat when i select timetable... i dun really have a confirmed group that i wanna follow... so itz easy to fit into any timetable that has a vacancy... coz i'm juz one person and not a group of 4 -5 ppl... the bad part is that might end up without a project grp...

was supposed to watch 'Rule #1' with Hong Ying, Huang Wei Jie, Xiao Bai, Raymond and Feng Ling... in the end... Raymond pulled out first... then after tat HWJ pulled out... then XB... hiazz... then totally no mood... cancelled... end up i only met Feng Ling go Hougang makan Pepper Lunch... then dunnoe why.... dammm sua sia... my slipper broke!!! then freaking hell... i decided to go barefoot ard hougang mall searching for another pair of slippers... yesh... i went barefooted for 3 lvls... before buying Buy-and-throw-away [Bata] slippers... 15 bucks!!! then i called Hong Ying... coz the pair tat broke was the pair tht i bought with her... then she from a quite du lan mood... keep toking with Feng Ling and me... end up quite happy lar... the 2 of them use my phone keep going... 很好笑lor!!! then i went home to shower before coming back to school... coz i kinda figured... tat if i came back to sch then shower... i would be on my own... so might as well go hm to the warm water... hahaz...

camp ends on thurs noon... anyone can pay taxi for me cab hm?? hahaz... got so many things to carry!!! =(

this week going out with Marshmallows for supper on good fri!!! yay!!! hahaz... ever since the hols started... haven seen them for quite a while... T.T

next week gonna watch 'Rule #1' with Hong Ying... with or without the others, we are still gonna watch!!! hmph!!! this is for pang-sei-ing us... cannot say we never jio u...

“期待...期待你发现我的爱...”
“期待爱” by 林俊杰 & 金莎

...results...

2008-03-14T06:00:00.000+08:00

the results are out!!! for me i dunnoe to be happy or sad... i finally got an 'A' for one of my modules after 2 yrs!!! but then bloody hell... i got 2 C+ and a D+.... which dragged my GPA down to a mere 2.7... argh!

...movie update...

2008-03-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

no those headphones are not mine... though i kinda wished they were after trying them... hahaz... itz really dam comfortable...

anyway!!! went to watch Step Up 2 : The Streets with Hong Ying today!!! hahaz... very cool!! all the dancing was cheographed very well... the story not really a love story... but more of a story abt a girl trying to prove her worth at the competition "The Streets"...

results out in less than 24 hrs!!!

"男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
男人女人我答应做个好人
不会再让我(你)心疼一等再等
你就是我等的那个人

男人男人
女人女人
多么希望你是对的人"

"男人女人" by 许茹芸/阿穆隆

...updates...

2008-03-08T03:00:00.000+08:00

by now... ah gek aka justin aka pakwing... is on the way to HK le... 21st then come back... hope he remembers to help me buy that handphone accessory!!! hahaz... later on at 3pm arthur kong flying down to Perth... hiazzzz... everyone flying ard the world... im stuck here... mayeb until the 21st... maybe going back to my mum's hometown, Kuantan, for the good friday weekend... maybe... dunnnoe yet... but i think itz most probably not... hahaz... coz i cannot really stand long car journeys anymore...

lets see... oh yar... went to watch "The Leap Years" with Hong Ying on Tuesday... Very NICE!!! hahaz... itz a touching story lar... shd go and watch it... i wanna go buy the book... someone buy it for me can?? hahaz... and don't say i will buy but wun read it alrite... i DO read... juz not very often... and very selective reading...

on monday i went to HWJ's place to play mahjong with Hong Ying and him... hahaz... i think i'm addicted to mahjong le... die... at hm nobody play mahjong with me... coz no one esle in my hse noe how to play!!! hahaz... outlets are the online http://www.viwawa.com/ or the computer one...

and i finally got a Motorola phone tat can at least match up with the other brands le!!! 2GB memory space!!! juz in time too... my mp3 died on me already... 2MP camera and 4x zoom... not out in market yet though... coz the software still quite unstable... hahaz... yayyy!!

met my secondary 4 classmates and form teacher on saturday... nice to see a number of them... though... actually felt that i was juz tagging along for the sake of juz making an appearance... kinda regretting going somehow... didn't feel that i belonged with them anyway... juz kind of reminded me of quite a number of bad memories... oh well... anyway... hahaz... was an opportunity to pass Laureen her very very very late b'dae cum christmas present...

oh yar... oso... hahaz... kinda wanna whip up desserts... espcially TIRAMISU!!! hahaz... coz itz my fave... plz drop the recipe for me to try... plz trust my cooking ok........... i got an A1 for my home econs de...

"And when I touch your hand

It's then I understand

The beauty that's within

It's now that we begin

You always light my way

I hope there never comes a day

No matter where I go

I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone"

"Everywhere" by Michelle Branch

2008-03-07T22:30:00.001+08:00

You Are Jasmine!

Independent and adventurous. You don't want much; just to break out of the guilded cage society has put you in and experience life to the fullest. Following orders isn't really one of your strong points, and you would rather live a life of poverty than being forced into something that you hate.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

A GAME BOY
Youre like a tomboy without the love of sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have your electronics you feel you can cope. Time goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your favourite collection of guitar-driven albums. Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour, individuality. Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life, action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.

What kind of girl are you??

...movies...

2008-02-28T03:00:00.000+08:00

Went to watch "Ah Long Pte Ltd" with Hong Ying on monday... quite funny lar... the song actually quite nice oso... juz the storyline really feels the same like the korean one... mostly in canto... coz the setting in KL so more ppl speak canto than chinese...

Yesterday went to watch "L : Change the World" with Le Shan, Wei Quan & Dominic... Thanks for the free tic arh, Dom... hahaz... overall it was quite nice lar... not too bad... though the front part was a little confusing... nth to do with deathnotes anymore... L burnt the 2 deathnotes... more of a race against time of his last 23 dayz of life to save the world from a virus outbreak... something like showing you how he solved his last ccase before he died quietly of a heart attack as seen in deathnote 2... got quite a number of funny parts oso... got 1 or 2 grusome parts too...

The Movies I wanna watch next!!!

STEP UP 2 : THE STREETS

THE LEAP YEARS

...the leap years movie trailer...

"we don't need anyone's approval to love someone.
so why bother what other people think?"
TheLeapYears

...Mahjong...

2008-02-24T15:50:00.000+08:00

*wei xuan's winning on thursday nite... or rather... fri morning...*

juz now went to HWJ's house to learn how to play mahjong... hahaz... but he still haven teach me how to see tai de... then poor xiao bai and raymond... 明明可以胡 and win quite alot... because of hong ying and me... end up they 让 us... can 胡, dun 胡... never play money oso... not that i dunnow how to play or wad lar... itz juz never play the real one before... always play virtual... hahaz... thatz yy keep forgetting to take one before i throw one out... coz on the com... the com does it for u... hahaz... okz... next one up... kai hua's hse!!! hahaz...

2008-02-23T03:00:00.000+08:00

THE HOLS ARE HERE!!!

...prezzies...

2008-02-17T10:00:00.000+08:00

-my valentine's day prezzies-

"我是白痴...也是被骗的天才...
你肯卖...我肯买...
对我呼之则来挥之则去...
演得精彩显得很乖...

不肯流露感慨..."

"天才与白痴" by "古巨基"

...lone...

2008-02-15T10:00:00.000+08:00

happy valentine's day

当你的眼睛眯着笑...

当你喝可乐...当你找...

我想对你好...

你从来不知道...

想你想你...也能成为嗜好...

当你说今天的烦恼...
当你说夜深...你睡不着...
我想对你说...却害怕都说错...
还喜欢你...知不知道...

"当你" by "王心凌"

...lies & deception...

2008-02-13T08:00:00.000+08:00

hiazzz... feeling quite pek chek now... why did u all promise to call me when u all didn't??? why couldn't u all juz sms me and tell me tat u guyz were leaving first... why make me simple promises that u guyz can't keep... very pek chek... coz tio pang seh again... kena bluffed by them again... is our friendship solely there juz for u guyz to keep bluffing me??? yes... im toking abt those guyz... now i feel what Ivy felt most of the time... on the outside... did u all really treat me as a friend in the first place??? or a source of entertainment for u all when u guyz are bored??? i juz wanna noe the truth... not the politically correct answer nor the 10 yrs series answer... i'm really tired of playing this bluffing game with u all le... did u all ever noe how i feel sometimes when u all juz leave like tat... without a sound... itz tat feeling of 3 ppl leaving 1 all at once... i dun think u all would have felt it before... coz even if i left u all... it would be 1 leaving 3... so the 3 of u all still have each other... and seriously enough of lying plzzz... very fed up le... why i believe so easily is because i juz trust u all... and u all play with that trust and turn ard and tease me... do u noe how tat feels???

"同伴也话我傻...喜欢受挫..."

"死性不改" by Twins & Boy'z

"Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend... Somewhere along in the bitterness..."

"How To Save A Life lyrics" by The Fray

2008-02-12T03:00:00.000+08:00

i noe itz abit late... but anyway...

Happy Chinese New Year...

thought i juz blog abit before i start studying... juz now pei tat idiot Dom to his attachment place... juz coz he never study geog... dunnoe how to read street directory map... i oso dunnoe why the hell i so kind to him... he kept bullying me when we were classmates during our first 3 mths... jialat... i too easy to bully le... the irritating part is tat supposed to meet at 8am... then end up he late... dunnoe is who going attachment sia... then end up went to mac... drank a frappe... i think caffine overload... until now my head still giddy... sian...

update abit oso baz... i went into JB on the eve... then got ppl knock my dad's car... the bumper coming out... who wan buy 4D!!! the number is 333!!! hahaz... then oso on saturday morning at 3am!!! got someone knocked into the fuse box down my road... so half of the street blacked out for an hr or so... and i was in tat half a street... pek chek... went to alvin's place after tat at nite... lost $1.30 there... hahaz... i play small de... zhi rong gd lar!!! eat the most... and win the most... l0lz!

later going brenda's hse to sap her knowledge again!!! hahaz... she's so gonna kill me le...

"握着你的手走过快乐和难过...黑夜白昼我们都曾经拥有..."
"庆幸有你爱我" by "蔡淳佳"

...tear drops on my guitar...

2008-02-06T12:45:00.000+08:00

ashton intro this song to me after seeing my whole songlist full of chinese songs

Tear Drops on my Guitar

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

...lost...

2008-02-06T12:10:00.000+08:00

other than uploading the photos for my class!!! gonna blog abit before heading to sch... see!!! im so nice to my class... hahaz... early in the morning still can wake up to upload photos for them... though yar... i owed them it from like fri...dun ask me abt quality arh... i noe quite bad...psps...

yesterday ended french and all of my lessons left... hahaz... makes me feel that the exams are even closer le!!! my god... and haven even finish studying blaw like i was supposed to...im soooo dead... anyway... yesterday went for the RED Camp 4 and Open hse appreciation... atmosphere was mostly high coz of the envoys running ard non-stop... hahaz... ashton yesh i mean u... 'PaPa Kong' take care of ur children!!! i think they have alcohol hidden somewhere!!! hahaz!!!

after that took bus with alvin, chun rong & jia jun... then realised someone got gf le wor... JJ&T... then they the whole journey keep toking abt wad... but i guess was juz their stuff... i think i got hear alvin tok abt amanda... so maybe got tok abt gf stuff oso lor... so i juz sat on my side and kept quiet lor... felt kinda alone... hmm... i think shd get used to tat feeling anyway... after this sem of exams... im on my own for bus rides le... hiazzz... then after tat alvin and chun rong got down the bus... left only jia jun and me... then he told me another story on the hp accessory lor!!! he say is someone give him for memory purpose... coz they worked on an event together... so juz like to remember the partnership... -.-!!!... then he say the 3 of them juz wanna bluff me first...

bloody hell lor... 我真的有那么好骗吗??? keep bluffing me... but i still think that is his gf lar... he juz wanna bluff me again lar!!! dunnoe how many times he bluff me lor! pek chek... dunnoe wad to believe le... juz hate that feeling that i noe one side is bluffing me... but juz dunnoe which side... and they JUZ REFUSE to tell me... argh!

'Maybe surrounded by...A million people I...Still feel all alone...I just wanna go home...'
'And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life...'

'Home' by Micheal Buble

...death anniversary...

2008-01-28T16:00:00.000+08:00

*28.01.2007*

today's her death anniversary... was staring at her urn juz a few minutes ago... then i remembered how she died... tears form in my eyes again... tired of that keep happening these few dayz... it takes energy to cry too u noe... i can still remember that moment where she had that seizure that caused her to enter the coma that she ended up staying in it for 2 weeks before she passed on before my very eyes... at ard 1pm... I thought that I could juz move on... with Angel ard the hse... I thought it would be easier... but it was nt... i juz could nt believe that she had juz left... juz like dat... after 7 years... she was my best companion... used to always have her beside me whenever i was sad... always there for me... but after thinking for awhile... maybe it was best she had left... at least it's better than still being in a coma... better than struggling to survive and live each long day... I noe that ur at a place where ur much happier and healthier... =)

but i juz wanna say...

i still miss u...

"你并没有离开我... 是搬到天堂生活..."

"蔷蔷" by Ella

...fate...

2008-01-25T14:00:00.000+08:00

hiazzz... must really be fate sia... just yesterday i was complaining that i wanted to got for my attachment in the first half of the year... i think i found the reason... i think itz because the events i like to take part in are all there... RED Camp... Open House... and a few more... anyway... i had already come to terms with that fact yesterday nite... because my piano exam will be ard the exam timing... thus it wld be better to be on attachment then...

then chunhui juz had to tell me today that i cld switch places with her!!! 玩我啊!!! i ok with it and accepted the fact... then that annie chiu tell me got chance to change.... pek chek... then in the end i gave it up to gabriel's friend... decided... might as well juz complete my piano grade 8 properly...

Congrats to those who scored well for their O lvls... my bro got 9... minusing off CCA grade will be 7... pluz i think he is going back to nanyang jc... so will be 5... gd for him...

...argh....

2008-01-24T16:00:00.000+08:00

juz found out today that i'm actually not gonna do attachment first!!! even though i out-sourced... i'm still doing it in the 2nd half of the year!!! argh!!! i wanna do first half... i dunnoe why... but i juz wanna do first half!!! sianz... hiazz... i guess life's juz being unfair as usual... all my bus-mates are going attachment first... so means... next sem... i'll have to stick to my solo bus journeys....

T.T

"少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞... 我想我可以习惯一个人生活..."

"一个人生活" by 林凡

...changes...

2008-01-22T14:00:00.000+08:00

was sitting on the bus juz now and juz thinking how extremes can happen within juz 1 year.

From something that I used to love... within juz 1 year... turned into something not exactly hate... but yet something that I'm doing juz for responsibilities... so many questions un-addressed... so many misunderstandings not cleared... juz leaves everyone so pek chek sometimes... okz... maybe not everyone... but for me, I feel that way... or maybe it's juz me... coz I remember JJ telling me before that I everytime 想太多... hahaz... dunnoe le lar...

today I became my own doctor... and found a 'cure' for my own sad moments...

"Cure for Sad Moments"

Ingredients:

- watching smiling children at the playground

- listening to the cheerful laughter of the children
-both for ard 20 mins

-and then a long walk home with the wind

Lasted duration:

-lasted ard 3-4 hrs

- or at least until reality hits back

*there shd be no side effects... unless u are allergic to the above...*

Officially Missing You

by:Tamia

All I hear is raindrops

Falling on the rooftop

Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go

Cause this pain I feel

It wont go away

And today I'm officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache

I could escape

But I fronted long enough to know

There ain't no way

And todayI'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do

Hey baby say it stays on my mind

And I, I'm officially

All I do is lay around

Two ears full tears

From looking at your face on the wall

Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don't even know you at all

I don't know you at all

Well I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it's safe to say baby safe to say

That I'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

Well I thought I could just get over you baby

But I see that's something I just can't do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can't find a way

To let go of you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

It official

You know that I'm missing you

Yeah yes

All I hear is raindrops

And I'm officially missing you

...influence...

2008-01-08T16:20:00.000+08:00

How easily are you influenced by ur surroundings?

How much are you influenced by ur surroundings?

i was listening to 'Hey Baby' by Machi in the car just now... and i juz cried after the first verse... thatz how easily i am influenced by my surroundings... dun ask me why... i wanna noe the answer too...

...SLEEP...

2008-01-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

hiazzz... juz came out of the bath after sending the marshmallows to the busstop... other than my dog barking at them and SL yelling at my dog when JJ or ChunRong brings her close to him... it was a peaceful and quiet morning... the sky is a deep but yet still abit light blue... and while walking hm... can see joggers coming out from their houses for their morning jog...
my room smells all sweaty now... hahaz... thankz arh guyz... u left a new yr "present"... hahaz... no lar... dun blame u all lar... wldn't expect u all to bring extra clothing anyway... so shd have expected that smell to stay for at least awhile...
juz now while they were slping... hahaz... SL suddenly toked in his slp in hokien!!! l0lz... alvin translated it to be something to do with wires (and SL was pointing to my ceilling)... i think i shd really try to pick up hokien sia... if nt really cannot understand wad's going on most of the time... after tat... dunnoe how phoebe turned abt... she ended up coiling up my telephone line... and pulled down the telephone from the side desk... ouch!... since i cldn't slp i downloaded 大酒店 from mobtv to watch and read my basic theory of driving book... but irritating SL lar!!!... put his doreamon ringtone but never wake up to it... argh!!! hahaz... anyway over le lar... now we noe why he dun like to slp over at ppl's hse... l0lz...
gonna meet xiao bai, weijie, huifang and fengling at bugis later at 3pm... i need some SLEEP!!! hahaz... if nt im gonna be slp walking then... hiazzzz...

...New Year 2008...

2008-01-01T20:00:00.000+08:00

went countdown with marshmallow to the esplanade and see fireworks... sad that ivy could not join us... at first shenglong said that he didn't want to come to my place... in the end the rest snatched his wallet to make him come... ate 2 home-made pizzas and a lil sushi... 2 bottles of sparkling juice...

...and they went to...

SLEEP!!!

i cannot slp now... coz my whole body feels kinda sticky... wanted to play my guitar... ended up cannot oso... coz i'm kind of tone deaf and cannot tune the guitar without the electric tuner... now time to pass to alvin to blog le... hahaz...

...d-day rehearsals...

2007-12-29T09:00:00.000+08:00

...Marshmallow's bbq cum fishing nite...

2007-12-17T05:30:00.000+08:00

Marshmallow went east coast for an overnite bbq "dinner" and fishing trip... then slept in tent on the jetty... was quite cooling... and 'COOL'... hahaz... i went immediately after the fan wei qi concert lor... then went to buy stuff at sheng siong with alvin, chun rong and jia jun...afterwhich his dad sent us to east coast... on the way we went to buy worms for fishing oso... when we set up most of the things and got tried to start the fire... was already 11.35pm le... the fire really started at 12 pluz... hahaz... ultimately it was a nice break from reality lar, other than the few calls and sms-es i got... it was a relaxing and peaceful nite... =)

...over...

2007-12-15T02:30:00.000+08:00

the CT's are OVER!!! hahaz... haven really updated in a very long time... so now's the time...
thought i'd upload a few photos before i head to school for Fan Wei Qi campus concert...

2A28 Pizza Hut lunch (6th Dec '07) @ Bukit Timah Plaza

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2A28 Hog's Breath Cafe (13th Dec '07) @ Vivo City

...draw a house...

2007-12-13T05:38:00.000+08:00

Now at Kai Hua's house... SUPPOSED to be studying... end up drawing a house...

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people. You are not a romantic person by nature. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

www.drawahouse.com

...thankz...

2007-11-09T03:30:00.000+08:00

"it's mine!!! hahaz..."

THANK YOU MARSHMALLOW!!!

really unforgettable... hahaz... not to mention my first time going k-box...

i KNOW it was dam last minute, ok... so dun try to hide tat fact alvin... hahaz...

seriously lor... if i told u i too tired to go... i think wld end up like tat time we went sakae...

...b'dae celebration without the b'dae person...

hahaz... but i dun care arh... next wk muz meet up...

all objections overruled!!! =P

"the guyz..."

"the gals..."

"Star of the Nite"

"steal my dog still look so stun!!! hmph!"

Photo of the Nite!!!

...they are dam natural...
...enough said...

"我不管未来会怎麽样...至少我们现在很开心...

我不管结局会怎麽样...至少想念的人是你...

我不管未来会怎麽样...但我每天都想见到你...

我不管结局会怎麽样...我想真的跟你在一起..."

"小宇" by 张震岳

不要想太多hor... the 你 is u all le... all 6... so shd actually change it to 你们...

...home alone...

2007-11-04T14:30:00.000+08:00

I noe itz a lil way WAY too early... but i juz thought of it... coz i like the main theme of the show...

Somewhere in my Memory

by: Bette Midler/Home Alone Children Choir

Candles in the window,

shadows painting the ceiling,

gazing at the fire glow,

feeling that gingerbread feeling.

Precious moments,

special people,

happy faces,

I can see.

Somewhere in my memory,

Christmas joys all around me,

living in my memory,

all of the music,

all of the magic,

all of the family home here with me.

...yesh...

2007-10-31T14:55:00.000+08:00

haven blogged in a long time... maybe the blog might juz become inactive after a while more... hahaz... had envoys camp 2 during 1st week of sch... as in the fri - sat... was fun!!! hahaz... not mention it was the FIRST camp i didn't get wet!!! coz my camera granted me "immunity"... l0lz...
a few updates:

- 27th Oct '07 -- at 5pm i ended my root canal "journey" hahaz... i dun need to go back to the irritating dentist...

- 29th Oct '07 -- went to watch "The Seeker : the Dark is Rising" with a Primary School friend... then went to Hong Ying's house and help her with her flash project... then end up i doing the content for her...
*HY if u are reading... plz note how much consultation fees u still owe me!!!*

- 30th Oct '07 -- FINALLY know how to work out the Rubix cube... hahaz...

"tell me are you on a mission to bring me down..."

One Day by Simple Plan

...what i want...

2007-10-19T13:00:00.000+08:00

...walked home today...

...7.15pm...

...listening to Sundial Dreams...

...by Kevin Kern...

...thought of what if...

...i could be granted 1 wish...

...juz 1 wish...

...what would it be...

...this came to my mind...

...ice-skating on a lake under the moonlight...

...as simple as that...

...photoz...

2007-10-17T14:30:00.000+08:00

this post basically is more to upload photos... but juz tok abit about sch lor...

today for me was 1st day of sch... coz had no IS on mon as the tutor was on official overseas duty... so yesterday still can go out and makan and kpool lor... went out with 4 other marshmallows... k-pooled... then makan steamboat... went AMK Hub walk walk abit... then home sweet home...

then this morning took same bus as the guyz... then dam funny... coz on mon nite... they say wanna wear back the same clothes for this morning... then chun rong thought they juz kidding lor... then he din wear back the same set for clothing... then the other 2 of them... alvin and jia jun... say he pang se them... at first i oso thought alvin kidding only lor... so cannot really blame chun rong... hahaz...

then reach sch... go print timetable... then pei the guyz go buy their notes... quite thick lor... then they only buy for themselves... never buy for sheng long... then they still can discuss wad to tell sheng long if he ask them why never buy for him lor... alvin say "coz we continue outing from yesterday... u never come so we never buy lor..." bloody hell.... hiazzzz... in the evening after my lecture i went to buy notes from vinz.... bought the yellow booklet thingy for RFA for 11 buckz!!! then bought BLAW notes oso... then my wallet came to a kosong... hahaz...

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...STEAMBOAT...
..."Witches"... Jia Jun and Alvin...
...Viking? Jia Jun...
...Ghost... Chun Rong...

...seeing all those stuff at the fairprice made me think of halloween i had in the past lor...
...then i went to dig out mine and my bro's costumes...

...mine...
...bro's...

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14th Oct '07

Birthday girl :Toh Kwee Gek

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

...Quotes...

2007-10-11T14:00:00.000+08:00

"痛虽然有深有浅... 泪擦干那就会好一点..."

"为明天" by 光良

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"不要太刻以去完美... 要求太高..."

"忙碌只是借口... 麻醉自己... 麻醉自己..."

"不要轻易松手" by 王敏惠

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"不应该怀疑...才不会伤心...不应该任性...才不会放弃...我不该太爱你..."

"Too Young" by 七朵花

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"我会自己给自己打气..."

"打气" by 黄智阳

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"如果你快乐不是为我... 会不会放手其实才是拥有..."

"笑着哭最痛..."

"那样的回忆那么足够... 足够我天天都品尝着寂寞..."

"知足的快乐叫我忍受心痛..."

"知足" by 五月天

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" 如果你爱过我... 你不会就这样走... 就这样丢下我... 和那些天真承诺..."

"牙关" by 五月天

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"为什么快乐也会流下眼泪..."

"Happy Birth Day" by 阿信

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"我没有任何天分... 我却有梦的天真... 我是傻不是蠢... 我将会证明用我的一生..."

"我如果有梦... 有没有错... 错过才会更加明白... 明白坚持是什么..."

"咸鱼" by 五月天

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"我不是很聪明我以为我可以... 守护你一直到最后一丝呼吸..."

"我只是没发现故事已结局... 你早已离去我还在坚定..."

"恒星的恒心" by 五月天

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"就算是整个世界把我抛弃... 而至少快乐伤心我自己决定... "

"所以我说就让他去... 我知道潮落之后一定有潮起... 有什么了不起..."

"人生海海" by 五月天

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"好后悔,好伤心... 想重来,行不行... 再一次我就不会走向这样的结局..."

"最后又是孤单到天明..."

"时光机" by 五月天

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"当我和世界不一样... 那就让我不一样..."

"我如果对自己不信... 如果对自己说谎... 即使你不原谅... 我也不能原谅..."

"就算失望不能绝望..."

"倔强" by 五月天

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"有你我才未孤单... 有你的陪伴我才有靠山... 你若不爽我是你的垃圾车... 每天听你的心声..."

"垃圾车(朋友版)" by 五月天

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"也许我这一杆又没办法进球... 就像我的生活一直在出差错..."

"九号球" by 五月天

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"就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙... 活过一辈子... 也要分分秒秒年年日日...全心守护你... 最小的事..."

"最重要的小事" by五月天

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"why am i still holding back my tears... in this loneliness there's nothing to fear..."

"endless road" by 林俊杰

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"也许大男人没那么男人... 少了点风度还是不承认... 有时候错的并不知道错的... 不想借口... 只是直接一点说..."

"有时候女孩没那么小孩... 心里的无奈也需要点关怀..."

"大男人.小女孩" by 林俊杰

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"我相信这个地球永远那么美..."

"相信无限" by 林俊杰

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"原来我撑着撑到麻了..."

"突然累了" by 林俊杰

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"其实我很明白... 没有你们我不能够走到现在"

"多庆幸身边有你们在... 陪我一起把梦找回来... 让那些回忆丰富的像海... 快乐不再是意外..."

"多庆幸身边有你们在... 陪我一起把未来打开... 让等待变成一种色彩... 不再难捱... 都是精彩..."

"有你们在" by 石欣卉

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"咖啡麻醉不了孤单... 只会让夜更长..."

"靠岸" by 林宇中

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i think i'll stop here... put up the rest another time... =)

...emo...

2007-09-27T16:00:00.000+08:00

today went out for marshmallow outing... juz less ivy and chun rong in the end... hahaz... and the best part was that we actually was thinking of juz throwing an early celebration for chun rong... but he had diarrhoea... hiazzz... we juz went to sakae at park mall to eat... so the day went like this:

= 10am =

got disturbed from my slp coz got someone banging on my window... coz these few dayz having repainting of the outside of my hse... heng tat i closed the curtains...

= 12pluz =

left the hse for bugis to meet jj...

= 1pluz =

met jj... yar... we were both late... hahaz... then pei jj go eat KFC...

= ard 2pm =

met alvin... he late coz he went to send his amanda hm... l0lz...

= ard 3pm =

bought chunrong b'day prezzie... only after getting so many weird ideas from the 2 of them... hahaz...

= until ard 3.45pm =

scouting for buffet prices ard bugis... l0lz...

= until ard 4.15pm =

walked from bugis to paradiz centre... why so long?? we went to some art gallaries along the way... hahaz... free admission ma... juz take a look lor... no harm... =)

= until ard near 5.30pm =

played pool at paradiz centre... coz pro nt ard... then jj become the pro le... hahaz...

= until 6pm =

went to park mall to see sakae prices for buffet... then went plaza singapura to walk walk while waiting for phoebe and sl...then i bought 石欣卉new album... the one with all the drama songs...

= 6.45pm =

went sakae buffet at parkmall...

= 6.45pm to 8.30pm =

makan!!! and alot of gossip... hahaz... then waited so bloody long for the 3 slices of watermelon each... hahaz... alvin say they muz have ran out and had to go to carefour at plaza singapura to buy before we cld get ours... l0lz...

= 8.30pm to 9pluz =

sl lar!!! bloody hell... pull us to couple lab... hahaz... coz he wanna buy ring and necklace for YC for their anniversary...then actually look like alvin buying lor... he everything oso muz say... then sl oso ask him lor... then alvin reply"u ask me for wad... u oso not buying for me ma...' hahaz... then the sales person oso cannot close shop coz of him... hahaz... then at that time oso dunnoe why... suddenly went emo... maybe coz i went silent baz... makes think of alot of things... and i cried!!! i seriously cannot believe tat i actually cried in plaza sing... the last time i cried in front of anyone was probably mths ago... on the phone got lar... but face to face...hiazzz... then jj realized i disappeared baz...coz he came looking for me...then the first thing he said was... "你没有戴眼镜很奇怪"... and i only replied him... "tatz yy i'm nt gonna wear contacts" ...we chatted abit on random stuff before we got to wad was on my mind at tat moment... cheered me up abit...at least i din as sucky as before... thanks!!!then alvin, phoebe and sl... went to the other side of the place i was standing at... then they tried to cheer me up from there... hahaz.... i seriously din know wad the hell they were doing... but it was funny... thankz!!!

= 9pluz to 10pluz =

we went to carefour from couple lab... then during tat whole walk alvin was trying to gain a sale from phoebe... he sells skin care products btw... hahaz... then i told him... "u are hard selling!wun work de!"... and dragged phoebe away to carefour... hahaz... psps stole ur customer... when we reach carefour... we started to roam aimlessly... until they started to give each other hi-5s until their hands hurt... then they started looking for where the ice-cream was... in hope to use the cool air to help their hand... din really work in the end... then we found sunglasses... then they started trying a few pairs... to look funny and to look great... we found one tat made alvin look like lau fu zi when he wore it...hahaz... then jj found quite a few tat looked great on him... i think itz coz of his tan baz... hahaz... the guyz found one for phoebe oso... quite funny de... sl oso found a few tat looked nt too bad on him lar... then we slowly made our way out of carefour and headed towards the mrt and busstop... to hm swt hm...

= 10pluz to 11.05pm =

was on the purple line hm... but i seriously was in no mood to go hm and get questioned by my mum all over... in other words... i din wan to go hm...then tat alvin lar... ask jj pei me... and i din think jj wld say ok lor... i thought he wld probably say late le wanna go hm le... unexpected... then when we got off at hougang... he ask me wanna go where... i had in mind a pasa malam tat i cld juz walk ard aimlessly... coz i never went to one at nite anymore ever since i moved to kovan... and i really miss tat childhood feeling where my dad will juz bring me ard and ask me if i wanted this and that... then we wld watch the teochew oprea from far once in a while too... though i'm teochew... i dun understand a single word... hahaz... but itz nice to watch once in a while... but too bad lor... no pasa malam ard... so we juz took 132 down to jj's hse there... we went to a playgrd near his hse to juz chat lor... the moment i sat down there... i dunnoe why... but i felt at home... more at home than that i wld feel when i was really at home... a warm feeling juz came to me lor... making me feel more comfort... then we kept chatting abt alot of things... bus 73 arh... his aunt arh... my uncle arh... buying presents... bags... dam alot of random stuff... tat i'm still thinking how the hell we managed to link from one to another... until 11.05pm... he say really late le... time to go hm le baz... if nt my mum will be worried... by then i was alot happier le... hahaz... prepared mood to go hm! so ok lor... go hm lor... then he walked me to the busstop... lucky his hse nearby... if nt i wld feel quite bad lor... he pei me liao tian... then make him go hm so late... theni changed to 109 at bowen busstop and walked hm from SPC busstop... thankz jj!!! again...

...what i was emo abt today...

-at how much a failure i am...

-abt what a young neighbour reminded me abt...

-how much my mum likes to rub into how bad i feel already...

i'm seriously a failure... i haven't gotten a single A for the whole 3 sems... though my gpa is neither here or there... the pt is i see no A... means i excel in pratically... nth... facing my parents is secondary abt tat... but sometimes it juz really feels like i wasted 1 and a half yrs... since i cannot excel in anything i do... neither do i excel in cca which my mum always claims tatz wad i go to sch for... since i dun study in her eyes... i screw up with tons of mistakes which ppl often find unforgivable... then i end up a hated icon...juz wonderful... then there's my piano as well...grade 8 this yr... but i still cannot play a classical piece decently... reason is dam clear... no interest... i dun wanna play classical... i wanna play songs tat i like... like disney... jay chou... tv series songs... everytime i practice my classical exam pieces... my mum says tat i'm not as gd as my cousin... she started later but she's already catching up with u... meaning tat i invest more than ur aunt in the piano lessons to get the same results hopefully... bloody hell... so now i'm someone without feelings... a vessel for u to throw ur money in so tat u can compare with others and try to get the same yield... sure i noe i'm ugly... at least in my mum's eyes... in my own too... tatz yy my mum forced me to get my mole removed and once in a while make me see a skin specialist... do u see me fussing over how i look... i seriously dun give a dam... u force me to go for these things... then u complain on how expensive it is... i din tell u... mummy i wanna get rid of the mole on my face... ma how to get rid of my pimple arh... i dun care if i dun get a bf or nt if itz becoz of my ugly face... i'll live on my own then... sure i'll be alone... but at least i noe tat i'll be fine... i'm nt ungrateful or anything... but... cld u juz ask me wad i wan instead of juz keep planning for me and expect me to follow... then i oso kept thinking of wad a neighbour asked 2 dayz ago... the kid asked my maid while i was packing my stuff in the hall... "auntie... where's Fluffy?? long time never see her already..." my maid smiled... "Fluffy in heaven already... won't come back anymore..." then the mum juz said bye and pulled the kid hm... when i overheard that conversation... my heart juz broke... i was 2 more dayz to the 8th mth tat she passed away... and i still cld nt get over her... mayeb coz when i often cried and hid in my room after coming bac from sch... she was the one tat was always there... i remember there was one time she actually licked the tears on my face... and the countless times i actually hugged her so long tat i fell aslp on the floor while doing tat and crying...at the same time i was reminded on the dayz tat lead to her death... she had fits... and the time in btwn them got shorter and shorter... until the last one which was quite long and the one which put her into her coma... everyday i wld go hm and pick her up and hug her... help her move her limbs abit... and feed her milk with a syringe...when she passed away... she was through a wk in tat coma... and she passed away quietly... when my maid was on leave... my parents in their rm... my bro out... and i was in my rm...i went down for water... and i saw her no longer breathing... i was so scared tat she was really dead... i thought tat juz her breathing stopped for awhile... so i called my mum and dad... then my dad picked her up and confirmed her death... i was always able to cope with near death of my friends and relatives... but i never faced death like dat... coz at tat moment was... i lost someone really very dear to me... a companion from primary 5 to near end of poly yr 1... all the sadness tat i felt inside... was let out of me coz she was there... her death was a sadness to me oso... but i din let it out... i cld feel my parents sadness oso... esp my dad... she used to follow him almost everywhere in the hse... so i din let it out... i din wan them to feel even sadder...i guess tatz yy up till now i never really gotten over her death... her urn now sits beside the tv... on the shelf... sometimes when no one esle is at hm... i juz pick it up and tok to it... and end up hugging it too... strange baz... but most of the time i feel better... i'll have to admit tat i partially emo today over the fact tat jj like a gal tat he met... hahaz... and read this marshmallows (esp alvin ee... hahaz)!!! --->but i dun think is becoz i like him... maybe i juz feel tat if he does get a gf... then i probably lost my bus 74 companion... l0lz... i'm dam selfish... i admit it!!! hahaz... i think i'm like a parasite to him lor... itz like ever since i cried on the phone to him tat day i got bac my eaa results... whenever i'm sad or really juz need someone to tok to... i juz call him... juz bacame instinct baz... pluz he juz now pei me... he like my counceller lor... i anytime sad then i auto call him le... dunnoe why...tatz the reason yy i dun mind waiting for him to finish swimming then juz take the same bus hm... coz at least got someone to tok to... coz the moment i reach hm... my mouth is shut... only my fingers move...arthur kong oso is a gd friend... he oso made me realise tat day at the library... how much juz one simple hug can cheer a person up so much... made me realise yy i used to hug Fluffy so much... guess i miss the hugs i got from my parentz...

itz 4.41 now... near 4 hrs since i started this entry... and i'm beginning to emo... again!!! hiazzz... i guess partially of the lyrics of the song i'm listening to now... 不要轻易松手 by 王敏惠... itz the theme song for 好儿好女...

here are the lyrics...

"哭是代表倦意
无聊只是因为不愿到哪里去
忙碌只是借口
麻醉自己麻醉自己

骄傲只是逃避
想要说服自己可以不依赖你
改不掉的任性
你要相信我在努力

我不断提醒自己爱自然就好
不要太刻意去完美要求太高
不要让我独自承受
看着我说不要轻易松手
好不好… 好不好…

骄傲只是逃避
想要说服自己可以不依赖你
改不掉的任性
你要相信我在努力

我不断提醒自己爱自然就好
不要太刻意去完美要求太高
不要让我独自承受
看着我说不要轻易松手
好不好… 好不好…

不愿在你的眼里变得太渺小
害怕你的爱会减少
不原你看轻我你太过重要
要证明我给的最好…

我不断提醒自己爱自然就好
不要太刻意去完美要求太高
不要让我独自承受
看着我说不要轻易松手

我不断提醒自己爱自然就好
不要太刻意去完美要求太高
不要让我独自承受
看着我说不要轻易松手
好不好… 好不好…"

~the end~

...updating...

2007-09-22T13:00:00.000+08:00

itz been quite a while since i last updated my blog le... updates here!!! hahaz...

...so far...

11sep'07 --- BACOMM Group 3 outing

14sep'07 --- Exam results (I passed!!!)

14sep'07 --- Root canal stage 1

15sep'07 --- Mum went to Taiwan

17sep'07 --- BACOMM Post-Stagewerkz Publicity dinner

18sep'07 --- Timetable selection (got TA28)
19thsep'07 --- Mum came back from Taiwan

...coming up...

24thsep'07 --- IS selection

26thsep'07 --- Marshmallow outing

27thsep'07 - 30thsep'07 --- PSP Camp

30thsep'07 --- Root canal stage 2

11oct'07 --- ChunRong b'dae

11oct'07 - 12oct'07 --- RED Camp 4 SL camp

that'z abt it for the rest of the hols before school reopens on 15thoct'07... hiazzz... still got quite a lot of things to do before the sem starts... hope i can finish the stuff in time...

a photo i thought i'd upload...

...angel dragging the leash from my hand to bring her out...

...choices...

2007-09-11T14:00:00.000+08:00

...heads or tails... ur choice...

life is like a journey full of choices tat we make... sometimes we make the wrong ones and regret... and others we make the right ones and rejoice... though there are some times where the decision does not really make a difference...

i had a toothache from fri evening until yesterday morning... which by then i could not stand anymore and went to the dentist... i did not go earlier coz i thought it was juz my sensitive teeth... which usually happens when i drink cold drinks or eat chocolates... the pain usually lasts for a few hours and then goes away... but this time it got worse... so bo bian went to the dentist... thankfully the dentist still attended to me even though he was fully booked... =) he took an look at the area where the pain was coming from... then he saw a big filling for one of the cavitives i did quite way back... then he said that probably a nerve infection under that teeth in the gums... so he said there is 2 options only...

1st option: get an X-Ray and see if there's a wisdom tooth behind the molar and extract out the molar to let the wisdom tooth grow forward to take the molar's place...

2nd option: a root canal... click here for more info...

neither sounded nice... so we waited for a while before he was free again to do an X-Ray on that area of my mouth... then we found tat i had a wisdom tooth that was growing slanted... and pushing against my molar too... pluz it was coming out of my gums already... so he said there is probably only 60% that option 1 will work well... so he suggested tat we go with option 2... then he oso mentioned tat at a dentist point of view... they will not extract a tooth unless really necessary... he was like trying to give us an option... but the answer was already highlighted...

then when i went home tat nite after defying my mother by going to tcc instead of staying hm... she told me... "i book ur root canal 1st appointment on thurs evening after ur daddy checks his teeth ok??"... my god lar! u doing this as punishment or wad?? afternoon u keep asking me to make my choice... say that it will be my decision... after defying you and going hm after dinner time u tell me tat tat is my final decision and i only need to choose the date... hiazzz... so now the date is... 14th sep, fri at 11am i'm going for the 1st time... 21st sep, fri at 7.30pm i'm going for the second time... the rest have yet to settle when with the dentist... but itz at least 4 times... and i juz heard that it can only be once a wk... hiazzz...probably will get sick and tired of having my lower jaw numb everytime i go there...

Quote:

"there's never a right time to say goodbye..."

Say Goodbye by Chris Brown

...无话可说...

2007-09-08T14:00:00.000+08:00

i really have nth to say le... only tat i'm really bad at planning outings!!! hiazzz... today'z marshmallow outing failed totally... coz there wasn't even one in the 1st place... see how bad it was?? not tat im angry or sad... and of course not happy to even start with... juz pek chek lor... things tat plan already cannot be carried out due to last min things... hiazzz... wad to do... tatz life...

then now... jj not replying me on msn as usual... i think he left his lappy on again... wanted to ask him when was the date he had in mind for the next outing... so i can pen it down and reject any other things to happen on tat day...hiazzz... i guess it will have to wait le baz...

it's times like this tat make me feel somewhat alone... nobody to chat with... can't slp... blank mind... staring at the 4 walls of my room... i got scolding from my mum... for not making up my mind about whether i was going to have dinner at home or not...i got scolding from her again coz i didn't touch my piano today... etc. etc. i wonder wad's her limit on how many things she can scold me in a day... hahaz... i didn't even realize she was on leave until 12 pluz when i went out to cut my hair... which oso made me realize how much time i spend cooped up in my room these few dayz... 2nite then i just realised that my mum will be going to taiwan next wk... tatz like where i alwayz wanted to go lar! hiazzz... dun ask me why i wanna go there... coz i have no idea either... but i always had an urge to go taiwan...

anyway... next outing coming up...

BA_COMMunications Stagewerkz Pub Team

Venue: Plaza Singapura, Swensons

Date: 12th September 2007

Time: 7.30pm

Quote:

"Even the best fall down sometimes..."

Collide by Howie Day

...departed...

2007-09-04T11:00:00.000+08:00

yes... it is true...

we have crushed and thrown away the banner...

we have evidence of videos on the destroying as well...
~the end~

...Ratatouille...

2007-09-03T14:30:00.000+08:00

juz came back from watching "Ratatouille" at AMK hub with 小白, Wei Jie, Zhenling, HongYing and FengLing... itz quite funny... interesting storyline oso...

gives u a slightly different perspective of things ard...

"it starts off with this alien trying to pass his UFO flying test"

"the whole story's setting is in Paris"

"that's what they do to rats in the kitchen"

"the star - Remy"

"the friendship begins"

"how Remy controls Linguini"

"training in progress"

"Skinner the head chef"

"Linguini & Collette"

"Ego the food critic... he finally realized the meaning of Anyone Can Cook..."

"a happy ending"

"Anyone can cook" was the motto of the head chef before Skinner... when Ego first heard it he was angry that the head chef would claim that anyone can be able to cook... until he finally realised that he meant that as long as you have the talent... it does not matter who or what you are... it won't stop you from being able to cook... Remy showed that to Ego... when the whole rat colony came to help cook with Remy when all the rest of the chefs in the restaurant quit...

click here for more on Ratatouille....

...hiazzzz...

2007-08-31T11:00:00.000+08:00

2day was supposed to do my piano theory which i have neglected for a very long time... in the end... i got lazy as usual and started to surf the net... found one's blog abt me... was totally negative... thatz the thing i hate abt blogs... it is an outlet for a person to write at... but it prevents things from being smoothened out... but ani't i doing the same now??? hiazzz...

i wanna clarify that when i do things... i do it for my INTEREST and i seek NO credits... u must have misheard that day... i was trying to clarify my reactions to a previous incident that u oso noe of... but dun noe of the reasons either... and another thing is that if u say that i'm doing slipshot work... if i really did... i wld admit... i wun find excuses... i am tat kind of person... so sad to understand that u dun noe me well enough... also if u found that the stuff i did was a BIG SCREW UP... i AGREE with u and i have ADMITTED it as well... too bad u did not catch... well at least i learned something from it... a word of advise... next time if u find ppl irritating, plz SPEAK UR MIND... if nt how the how is anyone supposed to noe?!?!? itz not like we can read ur mind rite? was i supposed to noe that u needed peace and quiet and tat u wanted to ignore ur phone??? next time get ur facts rite before u complain or whine...

"we were friends...but not anymore now... thanks for the reminder..."

...pool...

2007-08-28T14:30:00.000+08:00

went KPool today at amk... to celebrate HWJ birthday... met chun rong ther playing with his sec sch mates... after tat went to KFC to cut cake and makan...

...wad pooling is abt...

...HWJ making his shot...

...again...

then the rest who are not pooling

Cam-Whore!

...the gor and mei...

...ghost...

...HWJ & Hong Ying...

...again...

...and again...

...punch...

...ssssshhhhhssss...

...20th b'dae cake...

...HWJ & da-sao...

...20 yrs old liao, still so act cute...

...got b'dae cake still nt happy...

...cutting cake in process...

...juz cut it! already...

...my sadness...

黃立成&黃立行-緣投 與 阿丑

...longing...

...smile...

nicky lyrics

...lovin' it...

...life...

NAPFA

...tired...

MIA

updates

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...Mahjong...

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...lone...

...lies & deception...

...tear drops on my guitar...

...lost...

...death anniversary...

...fate...

...argh....

...changes...

...influence...

...SLEEP...

...New Year 2008...

...d-day rehearsals...

...Marshmallow's bbq cum fishing nite...

...over...

...draw a house...

...thankz...

...home alone...

...yesh...

...what i want...

...photoz...

...Quotes...

...emo...

...updating...

...choices...

...无话可说...

...departed...

...Ratatouille...

...hiazzzz...

...pool...

黃立成&黃立行-緣投與阿丑