Thursday, September 27, 2007
today went out for marshmallow outing... juz less ivy and chun rong in the end... hahaz... and the best part was that we actually was thinking of juz throwing an early celebration for chun rong... but he had diarrhoea... hiazzz... we juz went to sakae at park mall to eat... so the day went like this:
= 10am =
got disturbed from my slp coz got someone banging on my window... coz these few dayz having repainting of the outside of my hse... heng tat i closed the curtains...
= 12pluz =
left the hse for bugis to meet jj...
= 1pluz =
met jj... yar... we were both late... hahaz... then pei jj go eat KFC...
= ard 2pm =
met alvin... he late coz he went to send his amanda hm... l0lz...
= ard 3pm =
bought chunrong b'day prezzie... only after getting so many weird ideas from the 2 of them... hahaz...
= until ard 3.45pm =
scouting for buffet prices ard bugis... l0lz...
= until ard 4.15pm =
walked from bugis to paradiz centre... why so long?? we went to some art gallaries along the way... hahaz... free admission ma... juz take a look lor... no harm... =)
= until ard near 5.30pm =
played pool at paradiz centre... coz pro nt ard... then jj become the pro le... hahaz...
= until 6pm =
went to park mall to see sakae prices for buffet... then went plaza singapura to walk walk while waiting for phoebe and sl...then i bought 石欣卉new album... the one with all the drama songs...
= 6.45pm =
went sakae buffet at parkmall...
= 6.45pm to 8.30pm =
makan!!! and alot of gossip... hahaz... then waited so bloody long for the 3 slices of watermelon each... hahaz... alvin say they muz have ran out and had to go to carefour at plaza singapura to buy before we cld get ours... l0lz...
= 8.30pm to 9pluz =
sl lar!!! bloody hell... pull us to couple lab... hahaz... coz he wanna buy ring and necklace for YC for their anniversary...then actually look like alvin buying lor... he everything oso muz say... then sl oso ask him lor... then alvin reply"u ask me for wad... u oso not buying for me ma...' hahaz... then the sales person oso cannot close shop coz of him... hahaz... then at that time oso dunnoe why... suddenly went emo... maybe coz i went silent baz... makes think of alot of things... and i cried!!! i seriously cannot believe tat i actually cried in plaza sing... the last time i cried in front of anyone was probably mths ago... on the phone got lar... but face to face...hiazzz... then jj realized i disappeared baz...coz he came looking for me...then the first thing he said was... "你没有戴眼镜很奇怪"... and i only replied him... "tatz yy i'm nt gonna wear contacts" ...we chatted abit on random stuff before we got to wad was on my mind at tat moment... cheered me up abit...at least i din as sucky as before... thanks!!!then alvin, phoebe and sl... went to the other side of the place i was standing at... then they tried to cheer me up from there... hahaz.... i seriously din know wad the hell they were doing... but it was funny... thankz!!!
= 9pluz to 10pluz =
we went to carefour from couple lab... then during tat whole walk alvin was trying to gain a sale from phoebe... he sells skin care products btw... hahaz... then i told him... "u are hard selling!wun work de!"... and dragged phoebe away to carefour... hahaz... psps stole ur customer... when we reach carefour... we started to roam aimlessly... until they started to give each other hi-5s until their hands hurt... then they started looking for where the ice-cream was... in hope to use the cool air to help their hand... din really work in the end... then we found sunglasses... then they started trying a few pairs... to look funny and to look great... we found one tat made alvin look like lau fu zi when he wore it...hahaz... then jj found quite a few tat looked great on him... i think itz coz of his tan baz... hahaz... the guyz found one for phoebe oso... quite funny de... sl oso found a few tat looked nt too bad on him lar... then we slowly made our way out of carefour and headed towards the mrt and busstop... to hm swt hm...
= 10pluz to 11.05pm =
was on the purple line hm... but i seriously was in no mood to go hm and get questioned by my mum all over... in other words... i din wan to go hm...then tat alvin lar... ask jj pei me... and i din think jj wld say ok lor... i thought he wld probably say late le wanna go hm le... unexpected... then when we got off at hougang... he ask me wanna go where... i had in mind a pasa malam tat i cld juz walk ard aimlessly... coz i never went to one at nite anymore ever since i moved to kovan... and i really miss tat childhood feeling where my dad will juz bring me ard and ask me if i wanted this and that... then we wld watch the teochew oprea from far once in a while too... though i'm teochew... i dun understand a single word... hahaz... but itz nice to watch once in a while... but too bad lor... no pasa malam ard... so we juz took 132 down to jj's hse there... we went to a playgrd near his hse to juz chat lor... the moment i sat down there... i dunnoe why... but i felt at home... more at home than that i wld feel when i was really at home... a warm feeling juz came to me lor... making me feel more comfort... then we kept chatting abt alot of things... bus 73 arh... his aunt arh... my uncle arh... buying presents... bags... dam alot of random stuff... tat i'm still thinking how the hell we managed to link from one to another... until 11.05pm... he say really late le... time to go hm le baz... if nt my mum will be worried... by then i was alot happier le... hahaz... prepared mood to go hm! so ok lor... go hm lor... then he walked me to the busstop... lucky his hse nearby... if nt i wld feel quite bad lor... he pei me liao tian... then make him go hm so late... theni changed to 109 at bowen busstop and walked hm from SPC busstop... thankz jj!!! again...
...what i was emo abt today...
-at how much a failure i am...
-abt what a young neighbour reminded me abt...
-how much my mum likes to rub into how bad i feel already...
i'm seriously a failure... i haven't gotten a single A for the whole 3 sems... though my gpa is neither here or there... the pt is i see no A... means i excel in pratically... nth... facing my parents is secondary abt tat... but sometimes it juz really feels like i wasted 1 and a half yrs... since i cannot excel in anything i do... neither do i excel in cca which my mum always claims tatz wad i go to sch for... since i dun study in her eyes... i screw up with tons of mistakes which ppl often find unforgivable... then i end up a hated icon...juz wonderful... then there's my piano as well...grade 8 this yr... but i still cannot play a classical piece decently... reason is dam clear... no interest... i dun wanna play classical... i wanna play songs tat i like... like disney... jay chou... tv series songs... everytime i practice my classical exam pieces... my mum says tat i'm not as gd as my cousin... she started later but she's already catching up with u... meaning tat i invest more than ur aunt in the piano lessons to get the same results hopefully... bloody hell... so now i'm someone without feelings... a vessel for u to throw ur money in so tat u can compare with others and try to get the same yield... sure i noe i'm ugly... at least in my mum's eyes... in my own too... tatz yy my mum forced me to get my mole removed and once in a while make me see a skin specialist... do u see me fussing over how i look... i seriously dun give a dam... u force me to go for these things... then u complain on how expensive it is... i din tell u... mummy i wanna get rid of the mole on my face... ma how to get rid of my pimple arh... i dun care if i dun get a bf or nt if itz becoz of my ugly face... i'll live on my own then... sure i'll be alone... but at least i noe tat i'll be fine... i'm nt ungrateful or anything... but... cld u juz ask me wad i wan instead of juz keep planning for me and expect me to follow... then i oso kept thinking of wad a neighbour asked 2 dayz ago... the kid asked my maid while i was packing my stuff in the hall... "auntie... where's Fluffy?? long time never see her already..." my maid smiled... "Fluffy in heaven already... won't come back anymore..." then the mum juz said bye and pulled the kid hm... when i overheard that conversation... my heart juz broke... i was 2 more dayz to the 8th mth tat she passed away... and i still cld nt get over her... mayeb coz when i often cried and hid in my room after coming bac from sch... she was the one tat was always there... i remember there was one time she actually licked the tears on my face... and the countless times i actually hugged her so long tat i fell aslp on the floor while doing tat and crying...at the same time i was reminded on the dayz tat lead to her death... she had fits... and the time in btwn them got shorter and shorter... until the last one which was quite long and the one which put her into her coma... everyday i wld go hm and pick her up and hug her... help her move her limbs abit... and feed her milk with a syringe...when she passed away... she was through a wk in tat coma... and she passed away quietly... when my maid was on leave... my parents in their rm... my bro out... and i was in my rm...i went down for water... and i saw her no longer breathing... i was so scared tat she was really dead... i thought tat juz her breathing stopped for awhile... so i called my mum and dad... then my dad picked her up and confirmed her death... i was always able to cope with near death of my friends and relatives... but i never faced death like dat... coz at tat moment was... i lost someone really very dear to me... a companion from primary 5 to near end of poly yr 1... all the sadness tat i felt inside... was let out of me coz she was there... her death was a sadness to me oso... but i din let it out... i cld feel my parents sadness oso... esp my dad... she used to follow him almost everywhere in the hse... so i din let it out... i din wan them to feel even sadder...i guess tatz yy up till now i never really gotten over her death... her urn now sits beside the tv... on the shelf... sometimes when no one esle is at hm... i juz pick it up and tok to it... and end up hugging it too... strange baz... but most of the time i feel better... i'll have to admit tat i partially emo today over the fact tat jj like a gal tat he met... hahaz... and read this marshmallows (esp alvin ee... hahaz)!!! --->but i dun think is becoz i like him... maybe i juz feel tat if he does get a gf... then i probably lost my bus 74 companion... l0lz... i'm dam selfish... i admit it!!! hahaz... i think i'm like a parasite to him lor... itz like ever since i cried on the phone to him tat day i got bac my eaa results... whenever i'm sad or really juz need someone to tok to... i juz call him... juz bacame instinct baz... pluz he juz now pei me... he like my counceller lor... i anytime sad then i auto call him le... dunnoe why...tatz the reason yy i dun mind waiting for him to finish swimming then juz take the same bus hm... coz at least got someone to tok to... coz the moment i reach hm... my mouth is shut... only my fingers move...arthur kong oso is a gd friend... he oso made me realise tat day at the library... how much juz one simple hug can cheer a person up so much... made me realise yy i used to hug Fluffy so much... guess i miss the hugs i got from my parentz...
itz 4.41 now... near 4 hrs since i started this entry... and i'm beginning to emo... again!!! hiazzz... i guess partially of the lyrics of the song i'm listening to now... 不要轻易松手 by 王敏惠... itz the theme song for 好儿好女...
here are the lyrics...
"哭是代表倦意
无聊只是因为不愿到哪里去
忙碌只是借口
麻醉自己 麻醉自己
骄傲只是逃避
想要说服自己可以不依赖你
改不掉的任性
你要相信 我在努力
我不断提醒自己 爱自然就好
不要太刻意去完美 要求太高
不要让我独自承受
看着我说不要轻易松手
好不好… 好不好…
骄傲只是逃避
想要说服自己可以不依赖你
改不掉的任性
你要相信 我在努力
我不断提醒自己 爱自然就好
不要太刻意去完美 要求太高
不要让我独自承受
看着我说不要轻易松手
好不好… 好不好…
不愿在你的眼里变得太渺小
害怕你的爱会减少
不原你看轻我 你太过重要
要证明我给的最好…
我不断提醒自己 爱自然就好
不要太刻意去完美 要求太高
不要让我独自承受
看着我说不要轻易松手
我不断提醒自己 爱自然就好
不要太刻意去完美 要求太高
不要让我独自承受
看着我说不要轻易松手
好不好… 好不好…"
~the end~
Just The Girl @
4:00 PM
Saturday, September 22, 2007
itz been quite a while since i last updated my blog le... updates here!!! hahaz...
...so far...
11sep'07 --- BACOMM Group 3 outing
14sep'07 --- Exam results (I passed!!!)
14sep'07 --- Root canal stage 1
15sep'07 --- Mum went to Taiwan
17sep'07 --- BACOMM Post-Stagewerkz Publicity dinner
18sep'07 --- Timetable selection (got TA28)
19thsep'07 --- Mum came back from Taiwan
...coming up...
24thsep'07 --- IS selection
26thsep'07 --- Marshmallow outing
27thsep'07 - 30thsep'07 --- PSP Camp
30thsep'07 --- Root canal stage 2
11oct'07 --- ChunRong b'dae
11oct'07 - 12oct'07 --- RED Camp 4 SL camp
that'z abt it for the rest of the hols before school reopens on 15thoct'07... hiazzz... still got quite a lot of things to do before the sem starts... hope i can finish the stuff in time...
a photo i thought i'd upload...
...angel dragging the leash from my hand to bring her out...
Just The Girl @
1:00 PM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
...
heads or tails... ur choice...
life is like a journey full of choices tat we make... sometimes we make the wrong ones and regret... and others we make the right ones and rejoice... though there are some times where the decision does not really make a difference...
i had a toothache from fri evening until yesterday morning... which by then i could not stand anymore and went to the dentist... i did not go earlier coz i thought it was juz my sensitive teeth... which usually happens when i drink cold drinks or eat chocolates... the pain usually lasts for a few hours and then goes away... but this time it got worse... so bo bian went to the dentist... thankfully the dentist still attended to me even though he was fully booked... =) he took an look at the area where the pain was coming from... then he saw a big filling for one of the cavitives i did quite way back... then he said that probably a nerve infection under that teeth in the gums... so he said there is 2 options only...
1st option: get an X-Ray and see if there's a wisdom tooth behind the molar and extract out the molar to let the wisdom tooth grow forward to take the molar's place...
2nd option: a root canal... click here for more info...
neither sounded nice... so we waited for a while before he was free again to do an X-Ray on that area of my mouth... then we found tat i had a wisdom tooth that was growing slanted... and pushing against my molar too... pluz it was coming out of my gums already... so he said there is probably only 60% that option 1 will work well... so he suggested tat we go with option 2... then he oso mentioned tat at a dentist point of view... they will not extract a tooth unless really necessary... he was like trying to give us an option... but the answer was already highlighted...
then when i went home tat nite after defying my mother by going to tcc instead of staying hm... she told me... "i book ur root canal 1st appointment on thurs evening after ur daddy checks his teeth ok??"... my god lar! u doing this as punishment or wad?? afternoon u keep asking me to make my choice... say that it will be my decision... after defying you and going hm after dinner time u tell me tat tat is my final decision and i only need to choose the date... hiazzz... so now the date is... 14th sep, fri at 11am i'm going for the 1st time... 21st sep, fri at 7.30pm i'm going for the second time... the rest have yet to settle when with the dentist... but itz at least 4 times... and i juz heard that it can only be once a wk... hiazzz...probably will get sick and tired of having my lower jaw numb everytime i go there...
Quote:
"there's never a right time to say goodbye..."
Say Goodbye by Chris Brown
Just The Girl @
2:00 PM
Saturday, September 8, 2007
i really have nth to say le... only tat i'm really bad at planning outings!!! hiazzz... today'z marshmallow outing failed totally... coz there wasn't even one in the 1st place... see how bad it was?? not tat im angry or sad... and of course not happy to even start with... juz pek chek lor... things tat plan already cannot be carried out due to last min things... hiazzz... wad to do... tatz life...
then now... jj not replying me on msn as usual... i think he left his lappy on again... wanted to ask him when was the date he had in mind for the next outing... so i can pen it down and reject any other things to happen on tat day...hiazzz... i guess it will have to wait le baz...
it's times like this tat make me feel somewhat alone... nobody to chat with... can't slp... blank mind... staring at the 4 walls of my room... i got scolding from my mum... for not making up my mind about whether i was going to have dinner at home or not...i got scolding from her again coz i didn't touch my piano today... etc. etc. i wonder wad's her limit on how many things she can scold me in a day... hahaz... i didn't even realize she was on leave until 12 pluz when i went out to cut my hair... which oso made me realize how much time i spend cooped up in my room these few dayz... 2nite then i just realised that my mum will be going to taiwan next wk... tatz like where i alwayz wanted to go lar! hiazzz... dun ask me why i wanna go there... coz i have no idea either... but i always had an urge to go taiwan...
anyway... next outing coming up...
BA_COMMunications Stagewerkz Pub Team
Venue: Plaza Singapura, Swensons
Date: 12th September 2007
Time: 7.30pm
Quote:
"Even the best fall down sometimes..."
Collide by Howie Day
Just The Girl @
2:00 PM
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
yes... it is true...
we have crushed and thrown away the banner...
we have evidence of videos on the destroying as well...
~the end~
Just The Girl @
11:00 AM
Monday, September 3, 2007
juz came back from watching "Ratatouille" at AMK hub with 小白, Wei Jie, Zhenling, HongYing and FengLing... itz quite funny... interesting storyline oso...
gives u a slightly different perspective of things ard...
"it starts off with this alien trying to pass his UFO flying test"
"the whole story's setting is in Paris"
"that's what they do to rats in the kitchen"
"the star - Remy" 
"the friendship begins"
"how Remy controls Linguini"
"training in progress"
"Skinner the head chef"
"Linguini & Collette" 
"Ego the food critic... he finally realized the meaning of Anyone Can Cook..."
"a happy ending""Anyone can cook" was the motto of the head chef before Skinner... when Ego first heard it he was angry that the head chef would claim that anyone can be able to cook... until he finally realised that he meant that as long as you have the talent... it does not matter who or what you are... it won't stop you from being able to cook... Remy showed that to Ego... when the whole rat colony came to help cook with Remy when all the rest of the chefs in the restaurant quit...
click here for more on Ratatouille....
Just The Girl @
2:30 PM
itz been quite a while since i last updated my blog le... updates here!!! hahaz...
...angel dragging the leash from my hand to bring her out...
i really have nth to say le... only tat i'm really bad at planning outings!!! hiazzz... today'z marshmallow outing failed totally... coz there wasn't even one in the 1st place... see how bad it was?? not tat im angry or sad... and of course not happy to even start with... juz pek chek lor... things tat plan already cannot be carried out due to last min things... hiazzz... wad to do... tatz life...
yes... it is true...
"it starts off with this alien trying to pass his UFO flying test"
"that's what they do to rats in the kitchen"
"the star - Remy" 
"the friendship begins" 
"how Remy controls Linguini" 
"training in progress" 
"Skinner the head chef"
"Linguini & Collette" 
"Ego the food critic... he finally realized the meaning of Anyone Can Cook..." 
"a happy ending"
