Tuesday, July 24, 2007
I saw my dad leave in the taxi this morning at 4:16 AM... it'll be a week from now before i see him again... he's heading to Chicago via Hong Kong... If I'm not wrong he has to stay in the airport for about 2-3 hours for the transit.... Wonder wad's he gonna do at that time... i'm dam scared for him whenever he flies. especially after the SQ007 at Taipei incident... Coz at tat time his flight home from taipei was juz the flight after SQ007... Thus he had to remain in Taipei for another week or so...Looking at him enter the taxi early this morning... I was thinking... since i was awake, why didn't i wish him goodbye at all... Then it also set me thinking...when was the last time i had a good chat with him?
when was the last time we really sat down at the table to have dinner together?
when was the last time we caught a movie together?
when was the last time i had done something for him with the reason being family?
when was the last time i held his hand?
when was the last time i felt a warm hug from him?
when was the last time i told him 'Daddy, i love you!'?
All these last times were probably at least a year ago... It happened more frequently when i was very young... i can still remember the dayz that when i had a nightmare i wld juz crawl into my parent's bed to slp... coz i wld feel safer... but now i juz kinda grew out of those childhood dayz fully... I wonder how it will feel like to return to those dayz... it may seem childish but it's really heart-warming... rather than the family now that cannot have a proper conversation that does not end up in an arguement...
I wonder... if it's ever possible to go back...
Quote: "有时想把时间倒回..." Hey Baby by 麻吉
Translation: " Sometimes I really wanna turn time back..." Hey Baby by Machi
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