Monday, May 3, 2010
...我真的... 真的... 很累了...我沈默, 不代表我不痛
我不痛, 眼泪就不会流
总是安静承受, 安静忍受...
好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾流过...
感动和悲伤都是理由...
我多希望...
有好的眼泪慢慢流,
和好的笑容陪着我...
可是就是没想到...
错错错错错错错错, 全部都搞错...
最深的痛也只能沉默...
笑过哭过没想过, 最后要寂寞...
世上最残酷的, 恐怕是时间
困住人, 一切却还向前
干涸的眼再挤不出一点咸...等待后面是等待，
更沉默的等待...
让我肯想...
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦， 那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水...
我 好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂的世界
如果是你发现了我
也别将我挽回...
虽然, 笑着比解释容易...
可是, 我不是你想象中那么勇敢...
笑着哭... 真的... 真的... 好痛...
My mum was on leave for the past two weeks
because of hypertension due to stress at work
Every month when I see her tears
I don't know what to think anymore
Am I going to end up like her?
Or even worse than that?
Was I making the right choice,
when I chose the paved path for me,
so that I wouldn't disappoint her?
So I get my degree,
Then what's next for me?
An accounting job 8-5?
But...
I won't be happy...
Because, that's not what I want...
I'm so tired... I really am...
I'm so tired of living my life
and trying to keep up with her expectations...
When is it my turn?
Just The Girl @
9:00 PM
Thursday, April 29, 2010
watching 百万小学堂 now... so thought I'd just update a lil bit...
Did photoshoot with beatrice yesterday... at mactech building... was like her 保姆... haha... gave her a morning call to make sure she got to my place on time... but ended up 15 mins late anyway... but the studio person was even later... so it kinda worked out in the end... haha!
...photographer also can get bored, ok...
...annddddddddd WE'RE OUT...
oh yar... today's panda's 21st... damn funny... the twins called him "OLDA"... "OL" as in "old" and "DA" as in "pan-da"... somehow he doesn't mind being called old... but he mind's being called uncle... hahas! made this for him last night, but highly doubt he will know how to appreciate it...
"不再不再给你任何等待
放弃我已慢慢把你放弃
一切我已慢慢失去感觉
若无其事我就像
若无其事
我就像
若无其事
其实我曾想过是否我们相处时间不够多 多却错於是害怕结果最后难过我不过寂寞没结果的结果 对我来说就算寂寞也算解脱也算解脱意外从一开始到现在
伤害到彼此怨恨而分开
奇怪我对挽回没有感觉
就算寂寞其实我也曾想过喜怒哀乐不算什麽对我来说就算寂寞也算解脱喔也算解脱喔若有其事其实 若无却若有"
若无其事 by 房祖名
Sunday, April 25, 2010
alrite! im 'restarting' my blog... hahaz...
lets see...
i've passed 2009's Christmas, New Year 2010, Chinese New Year 2010, Annual Kuantan trip 2010...
ok... a lil updates here and there...
10th Apr --- Celebrated Phoebe's Birthday! =)
...something i made for her...
17th Apr --- Finance Mid-Sem and 五月天 D.N.A. Concert
22nd Apr --- Dance for Fund 2010 & Yusof's Birthday!
23rd Apr --- Lunch with UTAC ppl & Pool with HWJ and HY...
24th Apr --- Celebrated Panda's 21st @ Chinese Garden...
coming up this week...
27th Apr --- Photoshoot in the afternoon
29th Apr --- Project meeting
1st May --- ah ma going for the long juan feng concert @ suntec
2nd May --- Celebrate my bro's bday
3rd May --- Audit Mid-Sem!!!! D=
Not sure why... but been feeling tired quite easily these past few days... 老了！ haha!
friends asking me to start planning my 21st since i've got so much time before november...
but my answer is still the same...
"I cannot be bothered... Cause when the time comes... It's my exam period... I'd probably be hugging my notes and books to sleep... and plus I'm not very good at entertaining people..."
oh well... maybe will just have a drinking and K 歌 session when it comes... hahas...
"这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那麼伤感
世界太复杂 你说单纯很难
我当然都明白
可是 呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨
我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享我们没有在一起至少还像朋友一样
你远远的关心 其实更长..."
"我们没有在一起" by 刘若英
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
took 153 today and walked home from the main road instead of calling my dad today...
no idea why...
but I just felt like walking...
listened to "Lonely Christmas" by 陈奕迅 while walking...
"I wonder how this year's Christmas is gonna be..."
Just The Girl @
11:10 PM
Sunday, November 1, 2009
"hey! 给我一分钟的快乐吧
给我个办法来发泄吧
给我 自由
让我 生活不再没有意义
hey! 给我一分钟的快乐吧
给我个办法来发泄吧
给我 自由
让我 期待明天能精彩..."
最后只好躺下来 by 黄立行
Sunday, October 4, 2009
...don't know who to trust anymore...
"现实中幸福永远缺货.."
我还想她 by 林俊杰
Monday, August 10, 2009
...你真的快乐吗？...
"你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的愈合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下
你穿的保护色
为什麽失去了
还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤
全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着"
你不是真正的快乐 by 五月天
Just The Girl @
3:00 PM
"不再不再给你任何等待
"hey! 给我一分钟的快乐吧
...你真的快乐吗？...
